Hello everyone, like one post I saw earlier said, I'm new to the site, but not the game. I remember when I was first introduced to porn in the 6th grade. I could literally tell you exactly what I saw and what website it was on and this all happened 15 years ago. I say this to show you the lasting and powerful negative effects porn has on ones life, including mine. I'm now 25 and have been a casual user of porn ever since my first encounter and i'm finally realizing that porn is filth, like washing our souls with dirty rags over and over again. Whether you're a person of faith or not, I want to tell you this. I'm a Christian, I lightly use that term nowadays, because I know so many people who claim to be a Christian, but their actions and how they live their life tells different, so I'm a follower of Jesus Christ. No matter your religion, you are not immune to the lust and desires of the flesh and I found this out at a very young age, some of you guys even younger than me. So here's a little story about myself. I started using porn because it felt good, nothing more than that. Then as I got older, it gradually became more and more intense. I would spend hours a day on pornographic websites and even visit webcam websites, thinking somehow this wasn't as bad as viewing porn on traditional websites. This is just one of the tricks porn was playing on my mind. Now I wouldn't say I even visiting the deep depths of porn, but I started realizing that I was getting into some rough stuff and needed to stop. I told myself i'd stop and of course I didn't, I still struggle to this very moment i'm writing this. This is where my porn addiction became a problem, not only for me, but it actually started to affect my life. When I was 19, I started having bouts of severe anxiety, panic attacks, bad dreams, etc... See, I had always prayed, went to church, read my bible, did all the things that was pleasing to God, so why did this happen to me? Well I had a wake up call and was called out on not doing any of those things I listed above with meaning. I just did them to say I did. Anyways, I started working on a real relationship with my savior Jesus Christ and things were getting better, but still struggled. I caught myself occasionally looking, but didn't see anything wrong with it and up until now I thought that was acceptable. WRONG!!!!! I'm just here to say that we as humans are not captive to our thoughts and we can beat this. I know it is hard and I'm struggling with you guys, but I'm 3 days clean. I know that's nothing, but I was to keep you guys updated on my progress. I am dedicated to defeating this addiction once and for all and will keep you guys updated along the way. I now this post was all over the place, but I promise I mean well. Please do not hesitate to reach out to me. I would love to talk with anyone needing support or just someone to talk to. STAY STRONG GUYS AND GIRLS! I LOVE YOU ALL!!
Unfortunately I weakened and gave in. Still the same aftereffects, anger and inability to deal with people, sorry to say. But have to get up and go again, no choice. Somehow fool myself that by giving in I'm not giving in but accepting it, but it doesn't work at all. Thanks for asking. How you making out?
I'm sorry to hear that man. Was it triggered by something you saw on social media? Try not to beat yourself up about it, only a small setback. You can do this! I'm doing good man, still going strong. I will keep updating throughout the week.
Hi guys im new here Im 16 year old, I've been doing this stuff for like 3 and a half year now, i notice that this thing is the root of all my problems, boredome, loneliness, sadness, physically and mentally weak and drained, it destoys my school life i found it so hard to study because of how drained i am. I started to stop this now so yeah wish me luck. Day 1(in progress)
I wish you luck man! You can do this! Porn is one of the many roots of evil and self destruction. It destroys you from the inside out and makes you numb. Please don't hesitate to reach out if you need to talk to someone or need any advice.
It was what I call an urge cycle, I'm good for a few days and then get flooded with images and desire. Been good so far, caught a trophy smallmouth bass out on the creek this morning and have been working on some guitar stuff.
Ive been 6 days strong ( longest in 7 months) but it’s getting so hard to go on because of social media but I’m trying my best