eleven days clean is worth an effort.. it prepares you for the long run.. we build up from small streaks.. I appreciate your spirit to keep going with the challenge..
Day 9/29 There was fun movement in my tinder yesterday. A new like, then a new match. I wrote to the girl and went out without phone. I was thinking, that it could be noFap esoteric attraction, or it could be the lockdown. I choose it to be my personal effort causing results. Then I saw notification for message from the new match. When I clicked it, there was no message and no girl, she has unmatched me. Shrug. It sucks but it's not end of the world. Managed to recognise the disappointment trigger and avoid it. This is the way!
Checking in. Yesterday I broke up with a girl I've been seeing on and off for the last ~15 months. I really really really liked her. We were both trying so hard to make it work, but it just wasn't. She had a lot going on personally, and she kept getting hurt. Some of it was understandable in hindsight, other things I couldn't get my head around. It's tough right now but I'll get through it, and this is no excuse to turn back to porn. I'm not going down that road again. This is the way. Ugh that sounds tough. Stay strong my NoFap brother. Well done mate. New achievement: Distraction, unlocked This is the way! Looks like you're doing well Andrew Push past these first few days...
Day 97, checking in. It's a few days late, but: Day 90 Battle Hardened & Your Ensignia Arises! I've been wondering what to use for my insignia. I've decided to use the Starbird. The starbird, also known as the Wren Phoenix crest, was a stylized depiction of a legendary bird rising up in the air, with its wings spread and its head turned to the right. The Mandalorian weapons expert and graffiti artist Sabine Wren used that symbol as her personal signature. ... she painted the symbol wherever the small band would strike. She also painted it on her breastplate. ... By the third year before the Battle of Yavin, the use of Wren's starbird had spread among the members of the larger rebellion. ... Eventually, Wren's starbird was combined with the three-pronged symbol used by Saw Gerrera to create the Rebel Alliance starbird. https://starwars.fandom.com/wiki/Starbird_(symbol) Image credit: Tee Republic (I just tidied it up a little).
This must have been hurtful for you bro... anyway it's a good thing that you've a bigger heart to understand and respect her side of feelings. also a hurt haven't driven you back to porn... Great.. This is the way.. I wish this way your strength, perceptions on life and love will grow further
Thanks so much @Jo_Fabstronaut. I really appreciate the encouragement Yep, I hope I can learn from it, and become even more capable of loving those around me
Day 12/32 With other people we created a dating and noFap related mastermind group in discord https://discord.gg/5ZCJKYAyjh Feel free to join, it is enriching environment so far, I personally recommend it. Personally I had birthday party and had fun emotions, also worked as volunteer on something big towards the country government. More personally, I must work on my sleep schedule and discipline. On Friday a woman I danced with told me that I am her favourite dance partner she is new and was impressed by some moves that I lead her into. Dancing gives good emotions and leader follower dynamic which is very helpful and healthy.
Checking in, day 98 It's missing for me too, but if you follow the link it's a security thing (invalid certificate). Still, hopefully he can update it. @Wolfyoufeed You can use this link if you like https://www.dropbox.com/s/pya75cbc5lamqn8/Star Wars Rebels.jpeg?dl=1 And this is the image
Day 13/33 I resurrected my field reports thread in the forum and feel motivated to dig old writings and to write my book of stories with girls, looking for and being in relationships. I also asked the crush about her rejection and she opened up to tell me she has a boyfriend. Moving on to the next potential cutie. Observation: working on an NGO and the discord server gives me no time for Youtube and StarCraft2. Which is a good thing.