Checking in for the Black Templars! I also had a massive headache this afternooon, wonder what's up with that. A silver lining would be that when those hit me, even if I'm not in a very good state of mind, I just don't feel like doing anything at all. That includes PMO, so it's a pretty good unintentional urge-killer.
as a comrade and as a brother, I respect You. You not only have motivated me but showed me an answer to a question.
Youtube itself is a weird place. The content creators don't get that much revenue from YouTube ads, more from product placements and reflinks. If I want to support a creator I'll do it via donation.
Checking in day 3 black templars I'm having weird thoughts/urges in the last few days. Not really about PMO itself but rather some fetishes that evolved due to the years of engagement in PMO. I know from YBOP that this is completely fine and a normal part of recovery. Also a lot of things in life get worse before they get better. Luckily I got my techniques to transmute/focus myself on the good, the truth and the beauty in life. Stay strong, vigilant and aim high brothers.
@Gallade_Templar @Patty O’Furniture1289 Hopefully these headaches are not covid related @T0mCrus4der Exactly the same I am battling with. Fucked up thoughts which were created by porn. If I have never watched all the abusive stuff, It would never cross my mind. And once you see it you cant unsee it Have the same strategy. Always get busy so the mind cant wonder and start getting deeper in the thoughts. Or ideally talk to people around, thats the best technique for me.
Relapsed. After my longest streak, 66 days, I couldn't resist on a fierce urge attack, born from web page. The mind created sweet excuses and the fall was a fact. I just feel somewhat ashamed before you, like not keeping my word. Anyway, I will definitely join the challenge on February, if it is still on, and for now, humbly begin the 30-day challenge. Stay strong and focused guys. See ya!
Thank you so much. 1) For reminding about the "binge" thing. 2) For setting up this challenge in the first place. You 're responsible for many bright things. Cheers and keep it up!
I am in danger zone. I am observing that my mind is becoming more and more interested in sex related thoughts. I feel the need to checkout some paparazzi news, with only reason, seeing some spicy stuff. I also notice some tension down there and the thoughts are the same in the circle. I know what to do. Going for a walk and then get busy and then go to sleep. I know that once I laydown to bed its the biggest danger. I have to lay on my back. Do the evening meditation and NEVER START EDGING!!!
I bet on the fiercly loyal SPACE WOLVES to win Janurary!!! here's a dope remix for motivation!: warning: contains Zac Efron ..
W.T.F Always 7-8 times a month these shitty wet dreams occur, but the good thing is that I always suppress them, but they are that powerful that they escape into the subconscious parts of dreams and so their shitty work. but that's fine, but something happened today. a wet dream came. I do not remember much, but I remember that I F**K*D a girl. I don't know who she was but I just happened and I only remember a flash of one second, and a 5-second story. the story was that I aggressively, without permission did that. and I don't know that I was conscious or subconscious. when I relapsed at least 3 drops. Then I realized that I really did that consciously and that's bad, but I don't feel regret after that, I don't know. after I do any bad thing I don't feel regret anymore. I don't know why. What is happening to me? I don't know that it's a relapse, but a shitty wet dream. But I don't want any type of wet dreams anymore. I searched how to stop wet dreams, but the and was-they are natural. But you can reduce the chance of getting a wet dream. that was to eat limited in dinner and other things that I don't remember. and I did that but they didn't stop. and I was getting a very bad headache yesterday. Anyway, the headache has gone but those shitty wet dreams have gone. I want to tell you all that I am not practicing a reboot. I am practicing celibacy(brahmacharya) for my whole life, because what I want to be needs big sacrifices and it is one of those. OK!! so answer accordingly!!!!!!! and I don't know how to write a message of this type more attractively, so help in that also
It has helped me to turn my desires all the way up in moments like these, and not repressing anything. And with all the way up I mean it. I know knowbody that whats to spit out some knucklebabies bc of surfing some spicy pics online as their deepest wish and desire in their heart.
Checking in for the Black Templars. @lemi_caution You have been an inspiration for our Chapter and one measly reset won't change that. Best wishes for your 30-day challenge! I'm working on it too.
@Primaris I am so sorry. I failed again and again was not even 1week of our duel. I fucked up at night. I couldnt stop the thoughts and couldnt fall asleep on my back. It was 4am and still couldnt fall asleep. Somehow I fell asleep in the end, but once I was awake the fantasies were even stronger. Tbh I already felt like I failed, because I did some edging at night. So I just followed through. Anyway I am going to be around here. Avoiding binging because I count relapses for each month. I think the key mistake was that I played with the thoughts a bit thinking nothing can happen. I got sloppy. Cant wait to get to the same stage again, but this time doing the right thing.
Checking in for the Black Templars! So sad to see @lemi_caution with a reset. It's difficult when you lose a streak like that to spot the positives but I think its worth looking at it as one use of PMO in 66 DAYS which considering most of us could barely make it a day when we started this thing is a huge huge achievement. In times like this I also like to remind myself of a reset and a relapse, without a binge, a brief PMO session can often barely knock back your recovery on a long streak. Come back fighting brother!