365 days / my journey

Day 13 - a little bit better then yesterday, but still feeling like crap. Been meditating a lot as i don`t have willpower to even get up

 

No bro. Video games are last option. Even fantasazing is not last option, but video games are. I`ve been playing video games and i created another addiction.

 

Day 14 - all good

 

Day 15 - feeling very strong in every way and very high, i feel like the whole world is under my feet

 

day 16 - all good ^^ only music is not exciting as before, or i need to find something new to listen, or my dopamine receptors are desentitized and i need to do dopamine fast

 

day 17. insane productivity

 

Day 18 - extremly productive day

 

Day 19 - same as day 18

 

Thank you bro

 

Day 20 - tired. i need to just meditate, chill out, relax and sleep even 10+ hours. today i was sleeping only 4-5 hours and very creepy dream literally woke me up, where i literally died in dream lol

 

Day 21 - it is crazy how strong tension i got this is insane, it` uncontrolable. Been fantasizing. Days ago i accidentaly seen a couple of ASMR videos, i checked it out of curiosity. She told me to close my eyes and then she was making sounds of scratching and kissing in ear. I got sooooooooo triggered i almost experienced wet dream but as awake, i quickly turned it off becouse i felt O is going. Today more ASMR videos are popping to me and only seeing it is triggering, that is reason i got this strong tensions

How all this affected me? I truly don`t know, i surely lost some of the semen. But at least i didn`t do any of PMO

 

Day 22 - going through urges

 

Day 23 - strong tensions in some parts of day, but i am handling it by focusing my attention on something else, took meny cold showers

 

Day 24 - why i am feeling like if i edging it`s not a big deal? Why always when i am on longer streak just like another personality takes over. If i always had a mind as on first days of nofap that would be great, but my mind and my body are obviously my biggest enemies on this journey

 

Day 25 - easyer then last days

 

Day 26 - easy

 

I stopped writing becouse i felt like it lost point, i will write only if i got something important to say, currently i am at 40 and something days