90 days and counting

Made it to 90 days without PMO. I mostly did hardmode. I mean mostly because around days 50-60 I had sex a few times but before that and since I have been in hardmode. I plan to continue abstaining from porn and masturbation and to only orgasm with a partner going forward.

I haven't experienced any super powers but I do notice positive changes. Here are some of the main benefits I've experienced so far.

Morning wood has returned. I'll find out how my PIED is healing in a couple of weeks.

I still have some urges to MO but not for porn. I don't even like to think about it anymore and pornographic images don't constantly invade my thoughts like they used to.
I'm feeling happier in general. I laugh more and feel more positive.
I have noticably less anxiety.
I am sleeping better.
I have more energy but not a ton more.
It is MUCH easier to talk to women. I notice them more and find it easy to strike up a conversation. It seems like the magic "sexual magnitism" that people claim nofap gives you but I think it's just that I'm paying more attention to women, noticing subtle flirtation and paying less attention to the physical. Women seem more interesting, charming and beautiful and in different ways than before Nofap.

I don't have problems with peeing myself anymore. I haven't seen this mentioned on this forum before but almost every time I got done peeing I would zip up and some would leak out. That is totally gone now. When I'm done I'm done.


I'd like to thank this community for sharing your stories and troubles with this addiction. Reading other people's stories has been a key in my getting this far. I doubt I could have have done it without you. Keep posting because you never know how what you write might help someone. I will continue reading people's posts to maintain my motivation and remind myself why I am doing this.


One last thing. Read A Guide to Rational Living by Albert Ellis and Feeling Good by David D Burns. They will help you with shame, guilt emotional intelligence and make it easier to be kind to yourself.

 

It's was usually more than few drops. Like my muscles were too weak to push out the last bit.

 

The first 40 days were the worst. I had a week of strong motivation then the next weeks were very difficult with depression and hopelessness. After 40 days I woke up one day feeling noticably better and it's slowly and steadily gotten better since.

 

I think that is accurate. I think not constantly thinking about porn and sex has tuned me into a lot of other signs which makes women more interesting. I'm looking at body position, where they are looking, what they are wearing etc. instead of thinking about sex with them. I also don't feel as self conscious and have way more confidence. It's like there isn't so much pressure for sex I guess. Women are more interesting to me and for reasons which aren't purely sexual. It's really nice.