The lockdowns took a heavy toll on me. I spent my day working 8 hours from home, then I would go for a 10km run (4 days a week) and did some weight-lifting, and then I binge-watched movies. The floor on my sitting room was just a big pile of DVD's out of their cases, I watched 2 or 3 per day. Thankfully I didn't drink alcohol though. I started off by just perusing nudes without masturbating, but eventually moved on to masturbating to porn. So anyway today I've started to realise that my interests and motivations have declined. I'm still participating in my hobbies, but with less zeal and interest. I am also less psychologically resilient. So I've made the determination that today is my Day 1. And tomorrow will be Day 2.
There were undisclosed reasons for those lockdowns that go way beyond the onset of the destruction of the middle class. It may be that you have now added yourself to the seemingly endless list of people suffering as a result of the measures taken by Big Brother to keep us all hEaLThy. It really is shocking, though, that PornHub offering discounted or free Premium memberships to people – along with McDonald's, weed dispensaries and liquor stores being allowed to stay open while small businesses, gyms, parks and beaches were forced to stay closed – has not done more to foster societies of people who are emotionally stable as well as mentally and physically fit. Anyway, I wish you good luck and hope that you can overcome your afflictions.
You make some very good points kopykat in your post, however I'm unwilling to walk into that analysis. This isn't a time for analysis, it's a time to just see that it is what it is, and that I am where I am. No more porn, that's all.
That's fine. What works for me may not work for you and vise versa. I personally like to be aware of the mechanisms behind these things in hopes of building up the knowledge and preparedness to do better in the future.
Valid point. But if people as a collective don't spend any time on it, which is what's happening, we'll have bigger issues. No one's got all the answers. Here's hoping that everyone will at least do what it takes for him or herself individually.
The lockdowns caused behaviours that persisted post-lockdown. Anyway, I didn't use yesterday nor today.
3 full days off now. My interests are changing, I want fruit instead of sweets, and I'm looking at more music and art performances.
I'm gonna get an old car tyre, scaffolding poles, cement and a boat fender to make a freestanding punchbag.
Today I sent letters worldwide to various boxing organisations to campaign for the abolishment of the upper age limit in amateur boxing, and to have it replaced with a health and fitness assessment. My letter's endorsed by the world's oldest marathon runner who finished a full marathon at the age of 101.
Well done my friend. I managed almost 6 weeks recently no P. Then I relapsed yesterday... Damnit. But I try to go hard mode, but I don't think Im ready yet. You doing hardmode (no PMO) or soft (No P only)?