Once again, I let another girl pass by

Okay mate firstly I don't think this post should cause any trouble, because you weren't being mean, you were just admitting your feelings, politely, and not acting like we should all agree with you.

I'm about to go on a rant but please bear with me.
It is troubling however that you are still a sex addict. Meaningless porn / meaningless sex - what is the difference? I'd say meaningless sex is worse because not only are you exploiting your own body but also another humans. Also if you ever want to settle down in a long term relationship or get married, it's going to be hard to stay loyal to your partner when you are used to sleeping around.

Think about your future - having meaningless sex will not leave you feeling fulfilled in 15 years. It will not cure loneliness. Heck, it won't cure horniness either it will just leave you more horny.

As for the drugs, you should really stop taking and dealing them. Drugs are bad for you, and if you can quit porn, you can quit other drugs too.

I know that you are better than a sex and drug addict. You have more to offer to a girl than just drugs. Even the most depressed, drug addicted girl with low self esteem, you can make them feel special. You can be romantic. And sexy.

Of course if you were to take my advice on board, you should probbably seek help. Like go to a professional counsellor or psychiatrist or something, they could help immensely.
If you've read down to here, thanks. I know your young and maybe think you should have all the fun while you still can, but life will go on and you won't be young one day, and where do you want to be then? Fulfilled or regretful? (I'm not old btw I'm 17)

 

Well like this you are always gonna be broke(not bieng rude). Think about it do you wanna be broke and addicted to drugs and in the end be dead without doing anything with your life?....you are older than me i guess you know more about world than me. Good luck and you can do something good to yourself and the world. I really hated the line where you said you wanna "make girls your slave" so i got you reported

 

I can relate with the idea of making girls your slave. And making girls need me and be dependent on me in some way. I find it kinda hot too. I know where my feelings are coming from; I simply have a BDSM fetish. I'm not sure where are your feelings coming from tho, it might be just a fetish too. Porn can induce some of those and sometimes we can get rid of them. But sometimes there is nothing wrong with them and we just need to embrace them (i'm not saying that it's ok to forcefully put somebody on drugs tho, there are other ways how to express it). We have fetishes, almost everybody does, not a big deal. You can still enjoy those things and at the same time see girls as human beings, and be able to connect with women on deep emotional level. Which I kinda think is where a part your problem lies - you see them as too much means to an end, rather as human beings.

You seem like a person who could end up in jail eventually. Being forcefully taken out of court room while you scream "fuck the cops"! I don't want to say "grow up" cos that's kinda rude (well I guess I just said it, damn) but I really want to. Because if you keep this way you will end up in a place that is worse than where you are. And then you can blame the system, cops, government, etc as much as you want, but the truth is: your actions could have prevented that. The sooner you take responsibility the better. I don't want to lecture you, I am not the most mature and responsible person myself. In fact, my life is pretty fucked up as well right now. But lemme tell ya, it was way worse when I blamed others...

I see you feel angry, rebellious and have a lot of riot in you. And I used to too, I still often do. The reason I think why we do feel this way is because we realize that we are trapped. That we don't have as much control of our life as we want. We don't have enough freedom. So like animals pushed in corner we get angry. And because of too little space we start to become nervous and biting our own tail, self destruct. So you have to re-claim that freedom fully. Get out of debt, stop self destructing and getting in trouble, take control of your life. Get to a place where you feel free and worthy. Stop being slave to things. Not fapping is huge step in right direction. But we always are moving in life, either forwards or backwards. Only time when we stop moving is when we are dead. Other than that there will always be momentum, either good or bad. Personally, I am right now in bad momentum. That shit sucks. But we can reverse the bad momentum by slowly improving every day. It's no so much about whether you are in a place in life you want to be, but more about in which direction you are moving.

I don't think you love sex, drugs and power. What I think you really crave is freedom. That's what power and control means to you - to be in charge, to be free. Sex and drugs are means to that end. And also a way how to escape for a moment the trap you are into, to forget it, to feel free. And because you have not taken control over your own life and are not where you want to be, you feel the need to forcefully control others. To have power over others. Cos at least that's one way how you can feel in control. And you definitely are not a bad person, you are just in crappy life situation. You gotta be pretty damn Zen for it to not bring out the worst in you. Most people are not, it's normal.

I'm guessing if you get your life in order the need to have slaves and anger, and riot in you should go away. Or at least find a healthy way how to express itself. You might not be able to control your whole life, some of it might be controlling you, but you can still take control of many things. Like no porn, no drugs, no stupid waste of time on net while you might be working towards becoming more free. Like I said, it's not so much about where you are as where you are going. Everything will be ok if you work towards it, just focus on where you want to be and exercise your power of action.

 

The fact that you objectify women so casually is gross. I find it hard to believe that any woman would be desperate enough to go out with you.

 

"I wish that I could see the world through your eyes. You seem innocent (no offense). But I've seen/done too many things to go back to the innocent view of the world I once had. It's not a bad thing, I'm just more experienced and aware of my environment. I'm enlightened."
It does not matter what you have done, you don't have to keep doing it! And it's not about being innocent or not, not being innocent anymore just means you have no excuse to make näive choices.
"I'm enlightened"
You think you are but your not. I know this because I don't have to snort heroin to feel relaxed and sociable. Because I don't look forward to preying on some schoolgirls I don't know. Im not perfect, heck, we are all broken in one way or another! But I can see that you aren't enlightened, your trapped in addiction. Please, for yourself and everyone who loves you, make a choice to change and get some help! You can create the freedom you crave. Somewhere in there under the bondage and grime is the 'ideal' you - free, powerful, enjoying sex (but not drugs).

 

While I'm not going to say that what he is doing is right, there is certainly a chunk of the female population who enjoy being controlled UNDER CERTAIN CIRCUMSTANCES. Its called BDSM. Some people just have a fetish for that sort of thing, and as long as it is done in a safe enviroment between two consenting individuals, there is noting wrong with it. They made their choice, and you can make yours.

 

What? Was it you who thought of what to write there?!?
That post was incredible...

 

I'm not saying you don't like those things. I guess I worded it in a way that maybe could be misunderstood. What I mean when I say that you don't love those things is that the reason for you liking those things is ultimately a desire for freedom, not those things themselves. No? Think about it...
It might not be the only reason, you might just enjoy the pleasure for example. But I do think it's the main reason, that is the biggest drive for you liking things.

I do not want to argue with you about what is true or false. I'm not in your head after all, so you probably know better. I might be wrong. But to me everything you write in all of your posts, be it from this thread or similar ones, just screams that freedom is your biggest value in life.

You can. What's stopping you? We create our reality with our mind. You can choose to cultivate different outlook on life, if you want to. Positivism is a choice.

I might be not as experienced as you and I am certainly a dreamer, but I am not naive. Keep your feet on the ground and your head in the clouds - that's the motto I try to go by. Why? Because it serves me. I used to live in a dark and gloomy world, I didn't like it there. So I decided to paint it over in bright colors.

 

Not sure why would any mod in right mind delete this. You are simply sharing your own personal feelings, it's not like you are intentionally trying to promote hate and misogyny. This forum is for things like this, to put one's heart out and get some discussion going. If somebody is getting offended then that's their problem, they should work on themselves.

 

Why would this thread be deleted? Some people may take offence from this, but you aren't bashing anyone personally, or calling people names. So... what's the problem with this thread?
I think there's no good reason for it to be deleted. Closed, perhaps, if drama arises, but not deleted.

 

Perhaps it was for "fuck the government"?

 

Really? Well, like I said, I personally don't think there is anything wrong with putting our heart out and sharing the way we feel with other members, with intention to ask for advice or hear useful opinions, and point of views of others, or simply because it is relevant to discussion. We all are here to help each other to improve and get some support. Censoring people simply because we disagree with them does not help that purpose. I for example might find Christian belief against homosexuality offensive, yet I don't run around and report every forum post discussing that, because, while I might not agree with that, I respect their rights to have their personal beliefs. I would say the problem arises when people start to promote, encourage and advocate hateful actions and beliefs, which you did not, you simply shared how you felt. I read the forum rules and I don't see how this is against them. If somebody find this offending I would say they need to work on themselves and not blame you. It's not a reason to delete a thread. But hey, this is just my opinion. And because of me having lower forum title than some other people on here my opinion might not necessary have the same value. But hey, maybe they have some kind of legit reason and I just can't see it...

 

Now that makes more sense! I was thinking it's because of other potentially offensive thoughts he shared, but yes, disrespectful langue is against forum rules. It's written there in red. I guess this could be considered that. There are more civilized ways how to express the same thoughts and feelings. It just kinda flew over my head cos I hear this kind of talking and swearing on a daily basis between my friends, so I'm used to this and don't find it offensive. I still think straight up deletion of whole thread is overboard for that, they could just edit post and delete those rude parts out while keeping discussion here and going for benefit of forum members. But hey, that's just my me. I'm not a mod, I don't work here so I don't know how things are supposed to be done here, just sharing my opinion.

 

I'm pretty sure mods don't delete a thread some one reported without looking at it themselves and using their own proper judgement. @Rahultrup is not to blame and he was rightly offended by "make girls my slave".