Ding yang ding dang....whoa....still not fapping...still glance here and there at women when I am out and about, but nothing funny...sheeee hawwww! This is , well, making my head spin...looking ahead, but still thinking back. Discovering new feelings...discarding old.... Feeling better, feeling bold. Yes yes yes. Do not give up. No no no. Ok ok....soooooo...that's it for now. You all keep strong!
67 days...still trudging along...no porn....no M.... no O....but when I watch the weather girl....it's ok....but....you know...women in public...no problem there....P subs.....they are everywhere....just need to recognize the problem, and realize the consequences....work is better..more energy...wife is fine....dog is getting old...this is good...this has many benefits!...the before and after is very noticeable. Also, I feel that certain blessings are happening, albeit , small ones, yet they bring joy. You notice them!....blessings. And bless you all for being here.
Sooooo....68 days...mr happy is going through some changes.....he can become erect by will only...very little fantasizing ....but only at certain times...but I have noticed that my testicles have become very heavy and dense...they play games with me, but I win....they complain....then they go back to sleep...I find that they move around more...especially when they are excited....this is new to me....I don't think that I have ever experienced a true erection before...I started M when puberty was just getting started...I have never truly "shot" a load....it always came out, or ran out the end ....just saying...but I have always had enough to ejaculate around 1 or 2 ounces per day....blah blah blah....if I would have waited until I was, maybe 18 or so ...I don't know...you can't erase the past...
Really happy for you Furpy. You're obviously headed in the right direction! (I guess that would be at a 45-degree angle! Had to make that joke, lol.) Wishing you and your wife continued improvements! You're an inspiration!
Sooooo...this journey is still ongoing....and yes, it has ups and downs...but this is a good thing by far...what can I say to encourage others? Don't knock it if you haven't tried it You will find many benefits. One of the things that stand out for me is that I have become more aggressive with what ever I am pursuing....less fear of others or their opinions of me. My goals are to the point and I am quite clear about what I am doing, and how I am going to do it...there is little hesitation about whether I am right or wrong. It gets done, period. Very few questions, more action.
This is worth it...Yes it is....keep trying...you will not regret it...I'm in hard mode... My balls don't ache anymore ...they feel great!....and each day brings a new level of understanding of this journey...there are many mysterious revelations that come to you ...no, they aren't miraculous , but they are real ...you feel more fulfillment ... You feel more of everything....I would like to share all of my experience , but I still have a ways to go yet before I can truly understand this way of life....yes...this way of life is rare for most men....the urge to orgasm is way too strong....we see something like a pair of boobs, and whammy!....we are looking for a place to masturbate....bang whammy....it's done...please keep trying....you fall down, you get back up...
Whoa...still going in the right direction ....NoFap...still get quite aroused....no touch mr happy...
Ok....today was tough ...thinking about orgasm....balls aching ...day off work Wife gone for the day....just me and mr happy ...well...it makes you think ...why am I doing this?....you have to think hard. Why are we dong this?...this is torture!....mr happy is screaming at me...I can't get my mind off of mr happy...but still ....no touch....but last night , I was scratching my nuts in bed....and mr happy started to grow....I thought , well., I'm not really touching him, just scratching my nuts....but I stopped...this is just like masturbating. I was able to stop...God knows how ...it was extremely hard not to keep going. So today I decided to stop again from my " meditation " and get on here to post. How is everyone dong?....this is not easy!...how are you younger Gus dong ths? It must be really tough for younger guys!.... Well, I think I'm ok now...will go for a bike ride....see ya!
Well....say....you know...this is worth it....but....this is hard... Every day brings a little something that makes it worthwhile... Every day also brings the challenge of not touching mr happy. I have been meditating alone and willing an erection.... It comes up....stays up for awhile and I can feel all kinds of new Sensations ...especially in the scrotum (balls) ....the reboot is taking place And it is not happening over night, but it is happening. I will compare this to someone climbing Mt Everst. Some make it to the top, some don't, some have to stop half way, or go back to the bottom and start again, but for all, it is very very difficult ...you want to give up. You want to stop and go back to your comfort zone. But, of course, if you stop, you will never know the triumph , the pure joy, The epidomy of success that comes with perserverance, true grit, and the longing For freedom from porn.
This is starting to get somewhat easier....I still have strong urges, but porn is not on my mind anymore....how long can this go on?...well....if I have an orgasm, I will probably go back into a tailspin...
Hello and welcome to reality....sooooo...I wonder how many are on this forum now...this is spectacular to see so many trying to reboot ...yet sad that so many are affected by porn...