Awesome journal Furpy, i cheers to your continual success! I love the Mt Everest analogy. My x girlfiend had a Benzo and Zannex too, nasty nasty glad to hear that your wife is off them.
Soooooo. This is still ongoing....the urges come and go...cold showers help... Must keep going....too afraid of the chaser effect...
"Fear is the mindkiller, fear is the little death that comes before complete obliteration, i will face my fear, permit it to pass through and over me, and then i'll turn my inner eye to see it's path, where it's gone there will be nothing, only i will remain"
Well....this morning at 1:30... I woke up and mr happy was screaming at me....he was not good....he wanted to ejaculate and he wanted it now!....wow...shoot...well...it was nothing great...there was a large amount...I went back to bed....and reset my counter...I do believe that I can avoid the chaser affect...
Oh boy.....slipped again....but no porn....haven't watched porn since I started this challenge...so no porn for 95 days....don't need it....will keep trying to not M also...but NO PORN.....need to work on getting the wife involved more.. But I am starting to notice erogenous zones that I have never known of... Must keep going....no chaser effect...no porn...get the wife involved more. Keep the lust down...
Soooooo..back on the wagon....been easy so far....celibacy is , well, different... You still have the ability to orgasm, but don't....hmmmm...the body somehow finds a way to adapt...I find that the mechanics of orgasm can still be utilized, but in a different way. Not so easy to explain....help me out here..
Sooooo two cold showers....whoa....man man man.....just breathe....ok... Mow the lawn....wife is back home......ok now..
Well well well....sooooooo....this journey is still on going....so. If you are in your younger years and doing this, how does it feel?....I mean, I'm 58 , and be tough... If you are young, it has to be quite hard....no pun intended ...but I am still convinced that this is good for me...I do have some dull ache in the scrotum once and awhile, but it goes away...I have only MO' d twice since May 14 2016 ...this is unprecedented....I have masturbated almost daily since I was 11 years old...we just had Playboy magazine back then....sooooo...I'm thinking that a re -boot is going to take some more time for me....what I have noticed so far is that my balls get very active when I am concentrating on them...they start to roll around very fiercely at times and it feels orgasmic....but then sometimes that start to ache, and I have to get up and around....I'm thinking that I am flat-lining for awhile because I can't get an erection....I can get tingling feelings and mild orgasmic waves, but no erection..any input would be appreciated...thanks, Furpy.
Sooooooo....since May 14, 2016, I have fapped 12 times...no porn...porn is gone.... No more porn...my penis is happy....been 20 days since last ejaculation... Wife is very understanding.....hope the best for all of you people here. This is tough, I know, but very do-able ( how do you spell that?) I'm into tantric orgasm now...no ejaculation...but still pleasing the woman... It is working for me, but I need to study more about it...I also wonder if too Much testosterone in my system is making me feel weird....any help with that would be appreciated....thanks, and God speed to all....
Ok...ok....soooooo....it's Dec 11..... I lost control after 41 days hard mode.... Been trying tantric orgasms...They seem to work ...but I still spend too much time thinking about orgasms....must get back on track....will do....I have only ejaculated once.....no porn....and yes, there are many reasons to keep abstaining...oh my yes...and you all know what they are...I won't go into detail....
I went hard mode now I'm 500 days clean no pmo I have a good job make lots of money go on trips I'm been married for a year have two kids I can say I'm no longer addicted to pornography I have all the love I need in my life glad I found NoFap keep coming back to stay stay so much energy and more time to do positive things in my life adventurous journey my life has taken since I joined this website
Knot Good for you!...yes yes...the good times are coming ....I am still in the learning mode, but I can see that this is the life!...sexual energy can be controlled or channeled...it can emanate to other people in a positive way...encouraging relationships...keeping you whole....