So basically when I'm going about my day, I drive or walk past lots of people. Sometimes I imagine what the moment me going by people looks like from the other people's eyes. Almost like I'm watching my life in live time but through their eyes. It's super weird and cool. To clarify I don't have any anxiety around people (anymore) or confidence issues over my appearance. But I'm curious does anyone else do this?
I sometimes do this too myself, but it's mostly a sort of reminder that I'm just one person amongst the billions on this planet. At times I end up sort of 'zooming out' from myself to my local community, then to my position in the city, then into my country, then the world, then the galaxy, and then the universe. And then I realise how tiny and insignificant I actually am, a blip in time and space.
Stare into the shadow within shadows, you will find the gate way to the shadow world, a dark mirror of reality. (Drugs man)
I would love to have an MRI scan of my brain when I think about this stuff. I imagine it would be really really active.
I dont take drugs either, i have in the past as one offs. But i like how powerfull my imagination can be. The post i put about the shadow realm was a day dream i had. (eyes open) mite also be a D&D reference.
I sometimes find people mirroring my speech patterns, which makes think I am coming off as too loud. I would love to be a hearty athletic economist (what I study at uni, with an emphasis on China) but at the moment I think I come across as a bit two dimensional. NoFap helps with being genuinely magnetic, longest streak was fifty six days, I got on well with people. My streaks are short at the moment due to my bastard empathy curse. I actually would like to get PIED so I am less troubled by sexual emotional contagion. Who needs drugs? We're high on Life (well, for me at least I am for short periods of time)
I sometimes wonder what random people on street are thinking, where they are coming from and where they are going. It can be a fun little game. : 3
So you are being conscious of your actions at all times. Mindful is term they throw around for this. I'd like to be mindful like this.