I was wondering if anybody else has had this happen upon relapsing after a long streak. It's only happened to me after streaks of 30 days or more, but, I think it's happened every single time. When I finally was on the threshold of relapsing, was typing the porn sites into the search bar, knew what I was getting myself into, the Nofap progress I was giving up, the excitement and anticipation of all the porn awaiting me, my legs shook uncontrollably like I was extremely cold or had a neurological disorder. I'm thinking it's an intense combination of fear and desire. Has anybody had this happen? I'm looking for more perspectives on it. Maybe it holds the key to a helpful new realization. Thanks.
Yes. This happened to me before going monkmode. It's the dopamine floodgates opening. You should avoid this.
Weird. I have experienced something similar -- but only after relapsing. My body will shudder and shake. Often I use PMO to help me to sleep. In recent times I've found that it has the opposite effect. I often jolt awake from sleep after relapsing, as though I've had an adrenaline surge or something. I've always wondered what causes this....
Whenever I stimulate myself, I usually get muscle twitches, tremors, nausea, and quite intense euphoria. Sometimes I just stop thinking (to the point of not being able to even remember my name), become immobile, see tracers/walls melting, and many other nasty side effects. This stimulation can be strong (can even be worse than street drugs.) I do find the horny feeling to be like any other bad feeling, like depression, anxiety, etc. You just need to sit thorough it, and wait for it to change.
A thousand times yes. I get this feeling of tightening in my back like if I am arching plus the small tremors but only if I indulge in the thoughts for a few seconds. I have to trick my mind into thinking about something else or keep myself occupied quick.
Yeh happens to me. I think your body gets so excited with anticipation for getting porn which it hasn't seen in a Long time. I'm not sure why it happens but yeh I also shake like crazy.
Yes, dopamine sounds right, since I've read it's connected to the fight or flight response, as well as the experience of anticipation. Thanks for commenting.
Yep, that's about the best definition I could give to it. It always happens to me as soon as I finally mentally break and decide to give in.