Dude many of us share the same problem. My OCD is caused with endless fights my parents had. The insecurity they invoked in me. OCD and insecurity find so many ways to pop out. Being bottomed is the thing with us people who have wicked and buggy brain because of shitty childhood. Everything in the end comes to sex. I love to be dominator while fucking my GF but I sometimes wish her to dominate me because you know you have less responsibility, you try less to make her pleasure herself. It is just simpler. I try to choose simpler ways currently because I don't want to experience the shit my parents made me go through. NoFappers around the world. - Deep inside yourselves would you go for hardcore bottomed stuff because this is the way you want or you just choose it because it is easier.
I don't know. maybe there is truth when it comes about shitty childhood. When i was child there was war in my country. It was very hard time for me, but i am not sure how it affect my sexuality. I don't have issues about domination, but once i had top partner who want to spank me hard during anal, next time he want to do it with belt. I was ok with it, i dunno why, it doesn't play a big role to me how hard he fuck me.
My OCD has found many ways to punish myself. Mainly it was psychological punishment but I remember as a child I specifically cut myself. You may be not into sexas you are into self punishment
Another day without porn (week and 3 days). Today I don't think that dicks are hot anymore. This is really strange. What do you think guys?
I don't know what to say you, my longest streak was 3 weeks and i still want dick and then i relapsed because of that. Now i am on day 12 and still thinking about dick.
Keep up the good work bro. I have OCD and it's hell. Just keep abstaining from porn and the thoughts will go away.. Nofepper.. you are far too graphic
Some days you won't think about dick and some days dick will be all you'll think about. The point is that if you start obsessing about guys again, don't freak out or get depressed. Just keep doing what you're doing!
Maybe you should try the therapy. Mostly I myself can fix OCD thoughts on my own. Today I am very certain I had very strong anxiety the day I posted the question. I try to picture (in my mind) a dick pick but it is very very difficult however I can clearly imagine vaginas and boobs and many many different types of them. Try some herbal anti anxiety medication (or get CBT) for a couple of days if your desire for dicks will clear, then you probably have HOCD and you aren't bisexual and/or gay.
Yes exactly and you know what I'm pretty good at it. I started self CBT therapy after I found out that HOCD can be triggered by porn (Thanks god this forum exists, i truly thought I am bisexual) and it really helps. As I have said I just can't even picture a dick but can picture any part of women in clear details
If this forum never existed I would go and push myself to believe that I am a bisexual. Knowledge is power
Nofepper, I'm sorry that you feel sorry about your honest feelings. All of us here fantasize about things that get us into trouble. Some fantasize about penises, some about vaginas, and some about penises and vaginas. Some people fantasize about things that are bizarre and others about things that are illegal. There's nothing wrong with you having the feelings that you do. The only thing you need to worry about is how you act upon them.
Let me ask you a question: would it be any better to continually fantasize about pussy to the point that it led you back into masturbating to pornography? Whether you're fantasizing about dick or pussy, the problem is where it leads you. I honestly believe a person would be much better off as a happy bisexual in a healthy relationship than an obsessive PMOer. But I'm overjoyed that your progress seems to be going well.
I don't fantasize like as a sexual object I just imagine them. I know I will never go back to porn. Watching porn is just another compulsion of mine and I can control my compulsions very well. I'm not being cocky here. Look at addiction to porn as they are HOCD compulsions. Any Obsession will dissapear after compulsions are stopped this is how our brains work. Believe it or not most of the time OCD people DO NOT act on their urges (ex. Harm OCD). So first of all stop checking (I fail sometimes at these point) checking yourself if you get aroused by dicks or any other stuff will fuel anxiety which people can't really differentiate from arousal this is proven.
OTL, I can tell you that from my own experience it is very hard to reboot if you keep masturbating. Eventually, it will lead you back to porn.
Another day and I still have no desire to dicks. I got a couple of intrusive thoughts but they cleared out pretty easily. Porn is evil I guess.
Also I get vomiting sensation anytime I got intrusive dick thought. What do you think about this? I know I kinda search for reassurance but this sensations doesn't sound bisexual to me.
Hello, do you guys suggest to keep masturbate but stop seeing porn? i think it's almost same...yes, you don't watch porn, but you keep pictures in your head and if there is dopamine rush you can count it as relapse... otherside, of course it's better to go just MO instead full PMO...
Thank you guys for answer. I believe it will be very helpfull to me the sharing that I have with you here because I tried several times by myself to stop jurk off and eventually I didn't succeeded to keep up with it, and I pretty gave up from doing this process by my own.