HOCD or am I actually bi

Dude many of us share the same problem. My OCD is caused with endless fights my parents had. The insecurity they invoked in me. OCD and insecurity find so many ways to pop out. Being bottomed is the thing with us people who have wicked and buggy brain because of shitty childhood. Everything in the end comes to sex. I love to be dominator while fucking my GF but I sometimes wish her to dominate me because you know you have less responsibility, you try less to make her pleasure herself. It is just simpler. I try to choose simpler ways currently because I don't want to experience the shit my parents made me go through.

NoFappers around the world.
- Deep inside yourselves would you go for hardcore bottomed stuff because this is the way you want or you just choose it because it is easier.

 

My OCD has found many ways to punish myself. Mainly it was psychological punishment but I remember as a child I specifically cut myself. You may be not into sexas you are into self punishment

 

Another day without porn (week and 3 days). Today I don't think that dicks are hot anymore. This is really strange. What do you think guys?

 

Maybe you should try the therapy. Mostly I myself can fix OCD thoughts on my own. Today I am very certain I had very strong anxiety the day I posted the question.
I try to picture (in my mind) a dick pick but it is very very difficult however I can clearly imagine vaginas and boobs and many many different types of them.
Try some herbal anti anxiety medication (or get CBT) for a couple of days if your desire for dicks will clear, then you probably have HOCD and you aren't bisexual and/or gay.

 

Yes exactly and you know what I'm pretty good at it. I started self CBT therapy after I found out that HOCD can be triggered by porn (Thanks god this forum exists, i truly thought I am bisexual) and it really helps. As I have said I just can't even picture a dick but can picture any part of women in clear details

 

If this forum never existed I would go and push myself to believe that I am a bisexual. Knowledge is power

 

I don't fantasize like as a sexual object I just imagine them. I know I will never go back to porn. Watching porn is just another compulsion of mine and I can control my compulsions very well. I'm not being cocky here.
Look at addiction to porn as they are HOCD compulsions. Any Obsession will dissapear after compulsions are stopped this is how our brains work.

Believe it or not most of the time OCD people DO NOT act on their urges (ex. Harm OCD). So first of all stop checking (I fail sometimes at these point) checking yourself if you get aroused by dicks or any other stuff will fuel anxiety which people can't really differentiate from arousal this is proven.

 

Another day and I still have no desire to dicks. I got a couple of intrusive thoughts but they cleared out pretty easily.
Porn is evil I guess.

 

Also I get vomiting sensation anytime I got intrusive dick thought. What do you think about this? I know I kinda search for reassurance but this sensations doesn't sound bisexual to me.