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Lost my job because of this addiction

As if enough pain i have bestowed upon myself because of this addiction.Something way more worse happened which i had never expected to happen in my life.

I lost my job.i was fired from my job.Actually i was expecting it so it was not totally a shock.I was given enough chances and no external entity is to be blamed for this.At times i did improve as i started NoFap.The brain fog was not there but i took it for granted and relapsed and never quite got into quitting.

And then days followed the days of brain fog i would have no clarity whatsoever and would often do the opposite of what i was told to.My superiors would be pissed at me.I would be anxious all the times and would have panic attacks when i was not able to complete my task and then the day came when i was given the final ultimatum.

I tried hard infact got better but there were still some issues and they said they would have to let me go.

I have no one to blame but myself and my addiction. Iam not writing this post for any online sympathy but i just feel the need to vent out my inner frustration.iam 28 making way more less money than i should be making and jobless.I was great at studies ,above average in sports and had the enthusiasm to learn new things.

I am on day 4 relapsed previously on day 5.I would encourage all to make every possible effort to get rid of this addiction.I know i may have more relapse's but i will keep on trying as iam not going to let this addiction dictate my life.

All the best to all fighters out there.