BlindHermit

To any interested,

I am a 21yr Student who for most of maturity has been an avid gamer, pornographic enthusiast, obese lazy individual. Since completing high school i made drastic changes to my persona; i gave up gaming, ate healthier, worked hard both physically and mentally at the Gym and during my studies. While i saw improvements in both grades and physical health my social health was pure trash.

At the beginning of this year 2016 i saw a near complete relapse into gaming, gorging and giving up. My studies were put on hold (gap year) and i could no longer hold myself in public. After many months of nothing, in August i finally started to make another attempt at change. But while i was correcting the symptoms, i considered perhaps i hadn't found the cause.

I am a porn addict. I have been hooked ever since i received my first laptop where i could surf the web in my room at night. I have been reluctant to ever consider it a problem because it just felt so good, and all credible science on Masturbation i had studied growing up gave it an A for positive benefits. During my late adolescent when they were first publicly debating the sexual dysfunctions that accompanied porn addiction (erectile dysfunction, disinterest in real sex ect..) i thought to myself "i'll just remain single"; in hindsight this should have been an immediate red flag. Recently i have taken an interest in recent studies on porn addiction to overall mood and without getting into all the deep jargon i'll just say it fit me to a tee. So in October i tried a nofap alone experiment and found a month alone difficult.

One more fact about me, i am an introvert. It's a common buzzword i know but i use it just to paint a basic picture of me. To that end i don't often participate in forums, and a long term deflated mood (most likely due to porn addiction) may be the reason. To that end this is one of the few times i've put myself out there to a wider audience's scrutiny so forgive me if i seam odd.

Finally what does all of it mean? I want to do more than attempt noFap, i want to exceed it's 90 day challenge and i need help. I'm not looking for a support group, i don't want to be metaphorically carried over the finish line, i want to engage with like minded people trapped in the same cycle of porn high and day lows. I believe together we as a team can complete the 90 day challenge and break away from pornography all together, as is the purpose of NoFap. I will be posting often to keep up with everyone. I look forward to working with you all!

Tl;dr: introverted porn addict starting 90 day challenge.

Thankyou for taking the time to read my post! I really appreciate it.

Hermit.