Deredna

They were not saying what I had done in the past was correct but they understood what I meant & why I felt that way.

I told them I had shown her who I wanted to be instead of who I am. I talked slightly under 3 minutes. Thank you Al was their response.

She said she felt I wasn't the man she met and I had betrayed her trust. She was right

I talked about how my g/f felt after i finally confessed the worst part of my addiction, paying women for sex

Hi i'm Al & i'm a sex addict. Hi Al was the response. I talked about how my addiction made me lie to everyone, hiding it fromeveryone.

It gave me the strength to share my own problems with addiction and so when there was a second slight pause i spoke...

All of them interesting & helpful. I had never heard so many people being honest about their situations & feelings before

The reading finiahed it was time to share for those who wanted to 3 minutes a piece. There were some slightly longer monologues

I thought maybe my fatger or my g/f may be mine but with so little knowledge at this point I dont know if that is the case...

Not a god perse but a power greater than the individual. Unique to each person. something to help in times of need

I sat and listened as step 2 was explained by the others and contemplated what it all meant. step 2 is about a higher power

After the intro there was a reading conducted by the group around the second step of the programme the group uses to recover

baselines being the term used by the group for the reason we are there. I think I added more but introductions are meant to be short

You need a journal my friend.

My baselines include masturbation, pornography - mostly internet tube sites, cam models, and paying for sex

Hi, my name is Al and i'm a sex addict. Hi Al they said. It was a relief to say the words. It was out there. I am a sex addict.

As the people before had listed their addictions I listened and realised I there were a few people with the same issues as me, more or less.

Then it was my turn. I felt nervous, more than I had at the door, a room full of people & I was about to admit i was a sex addict....

It turns out I was not alone in being a first timer as I sat and listened to everyone introduce thrmselves.

Rules out of the way it was time to get down to the greetings. They went round the room, close to 30 people in the room.