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    I try so hard to control the world that I lose control of myself, and this is when I (P)MO.

    I try so hard to control the world that I lose control of myself, and this is when I (P)MO.
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    The time to quit is always now. Even if you quit "when it's a good time to quit", your next...

    The time to quit is always now. Even if you quit "when it's a good time to quit", your next personal crisis will be a good time to relapse.
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    Watching vanilla stuff to cancel out the fetish stuff I watched

    Having also devoted my life to PMO-ing over fetish material, in all honesty I don't really know what "vanilla" porn even looks like (which is why I used the speech marks). Would you say you do? I'm not saying you don't, just offering a question to reflect on. I don't even know if a true...
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    1 year free!

    1 year free!
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    That's great! Keep on keeping on my friend!

    That's great! Keep on keeping on my friend!
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    Well done! Amazing progress

    Well done! Amazing progress
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    Soft spot for big T's?

    I'm into them too, pretty normal really. I'm working on a habit of always focusing on peoples' faces whenever I have to look at them, whether in person or on TV, real person or cartoon. Because if I get into this habit with all people, it will naturally follow that I do the same with women...
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    2 years into sissy fetish, still can’t get over it

    @Ferrari_2020 I haven't been through your exact fetish but in my own there is an element of imagining myself in the woman's position... it's not the core of the fetish but I relate in this sense. I often think that putting myself in the woman's place is a way of connecting to her, because...
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    Stop feeding my fetish

    I've struggled with fetishism all my life. First you have to accept that the fetish may never leave. That might sound defeatist, but acceptance is important in reducing stress, and stress ultimately just leads us into temptation again. Furthermore, without the fetish you may still be addicted to...
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    Ask yourself every day: "What lies am I telling myself?" you may not like the answer, but it may...

    Ask yourself every day: "What lies am I telling myself?" you may not like the answer, but it may set you free.
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    Hey, 200 days!

    Hey, 200 days!
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    can't keep from looking at cleavage or breasts in public - help!

    I've had this problem throughout my sexual development and while I'm much better at controlling it, elements of it are still there. My trick for rewiring is to develop a habit of looking anybody in the face/head if I need to look at them at all or if I can't avoid looking at them (e.g. when...
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    Is post nut clarity our natural state or a temporary illusion?

    I've been thinking about this a lot lately. To be honest, I don't know the answer, but what I can say is that my progress is partly owed to having the same clarity at times other than straight after O. But to get there I have spent many months of introspection. The clarity goes away sometimes...
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    6 months free from PMO!

    In an episode of Elementary, Sherlock (a recovering addict in this adaptation) observes that a token of one’s progress is not only for that individual recovering addict, but for all other recovering addicts also. It is a symbol of what is possible, and I wish to present myself as evidence that 6...
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    6 months free!!!

    6 months free!!!
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