I lasted 24 hours before I failed. I honestly could’ve stopped myself but out of ignorance I chose not to. I got triggered by watching a news clip and couldn’t help myself I had to look up her name I had to google her naked or whatever. I had a choice And my choice was ignorance. Honestly I need to do this not just for my own health but for myself. I need to take myself seriously.ffs
The earlier you are in the reboot the easiest is to relapse caused by a trigger, because self discipline, the ability to fight urges is gradual. So in the beginning completely cut out of your daily life anything that has the slightest possibility to trigger you to the point of relapsing. For me it was social media (it is some soft p), movies or netflix that could possible contain sexual scenes. I "jail-broke" my phone in order to delete browsers and put an unpassed blocker. If you are new to this made a plan for your technology habits. Try to spend little time in computers or phones. In general, write down anything that could possible trigger you and how it will. Then follow it step by step until you build that motivation and self-discipline to make those triggers weak
Yeah...been there...the 'ole 24-hour or 48-hour rut. Rinse. Repeat. But nothing like the commercials.
Another day another fail. But it is also another opportunity to pick yourself up and fight your addiction. "You only lose the battle when you give up". A good way to withstand your urges is to work out. If you relapse again because of your ignorance, try and "punish" yourself by doing push ups or a cold shower. I call that "punishment with benefits" since cold showers and push ups both create a stronger body and mind and you also discipline yourself to react better the next time a relapse may occur. It has personally helped me withstand my urges since I have the option to work out while feeling energized or work out while feeling groggy and tired because I relapsed. And I would rather pick the ladder. Best of luck on your journey!