bro same situation here first i watched transsexual porn 7 years ago then sissy hypnotic i even questioned my self buz i enjoy it and wanted to become a transwoman bro that was some hard time i can fell u becuz there is a lot of trigers and urges craving from that hypno vid so first dont watch never ever again i dont know at any cost if u ever got a urges that wont stop use a common porno and come as soon as posible buz i know when ur masturbation to sissy vid and when u came that a very bad thing we cant even forgive our self so be easy on ur self and first delete the all porn like now and dont panic i suggest u hard mode on 7 days the thing is pleasure and happiness are not same if u wanna be happy u got to sacrifice some of pleasure in this case porno good luck and fell free to inbox me good luck
i personally feel my delving into cross dressing is a form of '3 dimensional porn' i can't join what's happening on the screen but it does take the experience to a more intense level, problem is ultimately i am heterosexual and the forced femininity stuff is just a psychological build up from standard porn not being strong enough finally my introduction of smoking crack cocaine while dressing and watching porn is beyond debilitating nightmarish and bewildering *random thought, but i gotta' share somewhere, i am quite lost*
I was never into "girly" porn, but I will say that now (2 weeks in) I'm craving being the weird porn I used to watch, just like you are. I tell myself it's just my brain looking for a cheap thrill to get some dopamine. Honestly I wouldn't get anything other than that out of it.
Here is my cross dressing story https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/new-to-nofap-former-cross-dresser.87813/#post-708020
