I want to m to fantasies- but no, I'm not into that. I want to do that tiniest search about something hot, even if its not images- but no, that would be turning my back on goals. It's ironic that I want to get out of this dungeon but I'm tempted by the chains that hold me there. Anyways, I march forth on day 12- craving everything, but not fooled.
I actually considered pmo. I actually really wanted to just search something I had an idea of or mo or just edge to a thought I had... I kept on holding off. I did not touch my d, and I did not search anything up. *deep breath* I don't know man, it's tough. I made myself one simple rule, I have one simple goal. No pmo. There are still tasks I am procrastinating on and stuff but its not too bad. I think I need to start reading stuff. Books, cool articles, etc. Maybe one on one with paperback friends may put my mind back on track... I'm so grateful to be pmo free right now. It feels tough but it's a basic piece of self control that feels good. I'm going to try start working a tiny bit on my goals and tasks again. Checking in, day 13.
