While doing PMO, this feeling sometimes comes naturally. If girls aren't attracted to you, then they are probably missing out on a great guy that is very nice in heart. However, you probably aren't satisfied as of now, so one small step would be to work on getting out of that PMO cycle. Slowly but gradually you will see a difference. Good luck!
I turned 24 today. I'm handsome, tall, thin but starting to build some muscle. I do 10 kms run almost every week. Yet I had sex only twice, the first time with a hooker. I've always been a bit shy, especially with girls, probably it was my religious upbringing. The second time it was a few months ago, on day 65 of my reboot. I'm sure that you're going to find your true self as well as a girlfriend.. Life never ceases to surprise you. I advise you to stop being so anxious about it, realize that the more you start meditating and disidentify with your past and your problems, the more you gain true power. I myself am still on the road...
Take the time spent fapping and go to a gym. One problem solved, you won't be scrawny anymore. Next you feel better with your rocking body and you can go talk to some real girls and maybe get lucky. Or you can stay home and fap, sounds like an easy choice to me. FYI - Real change is never easy, but it's almost always worth the effort.
Igy, what does this mean? You got to get out there to find someone. Where do you live? Find something to do outside of your home and go do it. The odds are working in your favor once you get out there and mix it up. Staying home doesn't work. There's someone dying to meet you, you just have to get out there and find them.