My name is Manuel! Honestly though, everyone who has ever cared for me has never called me by my actual name so for the most part I go by Manny, Meñin, etc. Let's see, I'm here because I have not felt accomplished in years. In short, I don't process rewards from small successes anymore. On the other hand, failure makes me depressed. Video games have always been a hobby of mine, but rewinding a decade or so that and porn has been more of an escape. I don't do either because I need to. It is a coping mechanism now that feeds a terrible anxiety. If I had the mindset I had when I was 12 I'd be on top of everything I sought to achieve. I am aware of this, but I haven't been successful yet in reshaping all(or any lol) of the negative commotion now in my head. This is the goal I want to work towards. Anyhow, looking forward to learning and growing alongside all of you!
Hi Manny! Anxiety is a side effect of porn, and it amplifies when we continue watching it. I'm 17 now, and even I feel that if I had the mindset of my 10 year old self, I'd be topping everything too. But then, I realise that I wouldn't be in this position if my mindset when I was 10 years old was perfect. I wouldn't have fallen to porn, nor would I have suffered like I have till now. There was something amiss in myself then, so now I'll build a better mindset that overcomes the missing element from my previous mindset. What I want to tell you is that you can build a mindset, a better one than your 12 year's, if you try. I wish you all the best, my friend I hope we can build ourselves together.
