The longer that your brain heals, the more you see yourself with honesty. I thought that I knew myself when I began this in May of last year - that I was aware of my strengths and weaknesses . But I was blind. The first 90 was an eye opener. As I progress, I see more and more. In my life, I dealt with a certain amount of social anxiety that kicked my tail every day. I did not like who I was, so I never looked deep within. I felt inferior to a lot of people and superior to others. Pornography gave me the illusion of connection. I felt like a thousand beautiful women were connecting with me. In NO PMO mode, I am learning to stop, slow my brain down, and look at my life. My focus is much more interior now, and I focus on being a man of virtue and integrity. I am affirmed by living out a virtuous life for God and humanity. This has set me free to be a man of faith, integrity, and virtue to those around me. I'm not chained down anymore, I'm free. DO NOT QUIT!! I am fueled by curiosity - to see more of what I have missed in my life because of an addiction to PMO. I see more every day. Remember that this is NOT impossible to kick. You've got to be committed to get free. If I can do this you can do this. I did not think it would work, but I am living proof that it can happen. If you relapse over and over, there's a piece of the puzzle that you're missing. Something that you're doing or not doing, some belief deep within about the process that is being overlooked. Don't give up and don't give in! Find the root and knock it out. I struggled with this stuff for years, and I now know freedom from PMO. GOD'S PEACE!!!
Well done brother, thank you for sharing, what a journey you have had. Congrats on 11 months. You inspire me to find freedom for myself.
THANKS! Stick to it and let your brain heal. Every challenge is an opportunity to form a new neuropathway. Don't give up, don't give in! GOD'S PEACE!!!
Man, inspired words! I too am beginning to see again; maybe really for the first time. To now seek truth, and reject all that is false; to be always honest; to be always looking to improve myself, and my world. What books have you read in these past 11 months that have helped you?
I acknowledge it's power, but I know that God has given us a far greater power than can ALWAYS conquer PMO temptation. Thanks for the post! GOD'S PEACE!!!
Not that much reading, outside of Scripture study. Main recovery research has been online. Benefited most from reclaimsexualhealth.com. Thanks for the post! GOD'S PEACE!!!
Clarity. You will have insights about yourself, life, others, and of course God, that would have been impossible in active addiction. GOD'S PEACE!!!
@Tested- Just saw your counter, 82 days! Stand strong! You're getting ready to hit a 90 milestone! GOD'S PEACE!!!
@Tested you could try either of the books: The porn myth by Matt Fradd or Your brain on Porn by Gary Wilson and Anthony Jack
Ok thanks for the lead; I am currently reading two books, How to raise your self esteem by Nathaniel Branden; and the Way of the Superior Man, David Deida. The latter in particular is challenging and v thought provoking in regards to how we live as MEN. If you wish to read with me (and another AP) we have found a free link, you can take part in this in a kind of NF book club if you like. Let me know.
Hi @GuitarDude getting free from addiction is not easy as you know. What strategies do you have in place for when you have urges?
You are going to need accountability in order to turn this around. PM me if you want daily accountability from someone who is over 80 days clean, after a 25 year addiction. I am helping others on NF; I can help you, too, if you want to commit to change.