Today is day number 4 hard mode.. I am 29 and have been addicted to porn and masturbation since I was 13. After day 2 my anxiety went trough the roof. My heart can't stop beating. Even taking a shower makes my heartbeat go crazy. Sometimes I feel more energetic, sometimes completely drained form energy, sad and lonely. In someway it is nice to feel myself, but goddamn it is hard!!! How are you guys doing ? I try to focus on let my feelings and anxiety be a part of knowing myself. And get out when I have the energy to it. Ps. Sorry for my English - I know it is not spot on
Hi, you’re breaking a behaviour routine that your brain has been addicted to so it’s not surprising you’re experiencing what you are. You will get through this but my advice at the start is simple: 1. keep a daily journal: it will help you keep focus and communicating what you’re feeling is an important part of accepting your addiction and changing. It is also a good way to show your progress in getting back to more normal sexual behaviour. 2. Know your triggers: there are some things that will make you want to watch porn or masturbate. Mine is alcohol and boredom. Once you understand these you can find ways of dealing with them. I deal with it through avoiding overuse of alcohol whilst being alone and keeping active. Many try and benefit from meditation when you feel the desire building. I’m on on month 2 but no BS I’m experiencing great results of no PMO. Keep with it and be strong. Remember you are in control not your body.
Thank you so much for your answer Shaneboy2020. It made me feel good about the decision, when I read your post! I can really use your advise, I keep it up and write a journal every evening! - 2 month is really great work! Did you experience anxiety/raised heartbeat when you started your journey ?
No problem. I didn’t experience anxiety but try not to over think this as everyone is different..just think of it like giving your body and mind a holiday and time to rebalance. I suffered social anxiety and brain fog from porn but giving it up I found my thoughts were clearer and my first reaction to stress wasn’t fear but calm. Maybe in your journal have a daily scale for your anxiety from 1-10 and write down what brought it on or what’s going through your mind. Just remember you cant control your thoughts but you can control your actions from them. Have you tried meditation? I was originally a skeptic but there’s lots of free apps and I’ve found it to be very beneficial when I feel more inclined to masturbate. It’s amazing how quickly the desire goes when you relax your mind.
It’s tough isn’t it..many feelings of shame and disappointment but overall I’m masturbating a lot less so it’s positive. We’ve got to learn from the relapse as opposed to beating ourselves up about it.
The urges are crazy today! I am so restless! Shit! I hope the withdrawal get to the max soon, so the curve flat line or go down!
I am on the edge to take a drink or two, to get my mind on to something els and get tha anxiety down.. What do you guys do, when it is SOS bad !!