I had the worst relapse ever after having been clean for a few weeks. I've been an addict since I was 13. I had just turned 18 about a week ago. A few days ago I convinced myself it would be ok to go get a private stripper dance. That ended up with me staying up all night, spending a total of $800, running out of money at the first strip club, spending all night trying to get more money, and I was at the bank the second they opened to cash my check and spent another $500. I had really bad cravings, and the worst depression I have ever had in my life following that. I've finally realized how far my addiction has gone. Ive been able to be clean since then. I have an appointment with a psychologist next week. I always thought I would be able to handle this myself, but I realize I need help now.
Good on you for taking steps to identify and sort out your problem. I'm sorry to hear that you had such a bad relapse experience. Hope therapy can provide any answers that you are looking for. Deciding to go to therapy is a brave decision, I applaud you for it. All the best mate