I’m using this forum as a day counter, support, a place I can come clean, and try to meet some personal goals. Once every few month I come across to easy access to cocaine and binge for the night and feel terrible the next day. I’m not really doing too much but I always feel terrible and have no control to stop when I’m doing it. I will remain clean from drugs, alcohol, and PMO and focus on my goals. Good luck to all of you in your journeys!