Trying to keep it short: First did 300 days no pmo and no sexual activity. day 100-150 deep flatline and no life in my mojo. day 150-250 libido starting to come back slowly. Day 300 met a girl on holiday and I was able to have sex for 3 nights in a row! Erection was strong enough but not 100% yet The 4th night I had PIED again and could not get it up, I guess I had too many ejaculations in a short timeframe. After this waited a few weeks and my libido started to come back again, so I guess I was safe. In daily life I was getting more horny and because I dont have a partner and struggle with dating.. I thought it was okay to introduce mastrubation again in my life... boy was I wrong. 1 thing led to the other and before I knew I was watching P again, relapsed maybe 20 times in 3 months time.. after that I was PMO free again for 30-40 days untill I met a girl and I had PIED again.. I cant believe that my recovery is crushed just in 3 months after rebooting for 1 year. Im now around 60-70 days of PMO free and recovery is going reallllyyyy slow. Fuck maybe I have to wait 1 year again or longer. I just turned 30yrs and I have a strong desire to be sexually active, been battling for PIED for 5yrs now, basically wasted all my young sexual years on PMO.
What other healthy habits do you have? Do cardio and spend time in sunshine for dopamine system recovery.
I think my lifestyle is healthy, I workout around 4-5 times (calisthenics) per week, but not alot of cardio. I live in the Netherlands where we don't get alot of sun but I always walk for 30 min lunch break (9 to 5 job) and in the evening workout outside. Regarding diet I drink 2-3L water per day, I eat 2-3 pieces of fruit and everyday a good salad. My meals are mostly plant based, only max 2 times meat per week. I read somewhere that meditation can greatly improve the recovery, I might give that a shot.
Those are amazing streaks, keep in mind that not all your progress is lost after just one or two relapses, it's about brain changes and rewiring, they stay after you've done 300 days with just a couple relapses after
First of all man, 300 days?! that's awesome. You are killing it. Also I am in the exact same boat as you. I'm thirty years old, been struggling with PIED for about 5 Years (had some pretty embarrassing situations) and have experienced some of the same things. Here's my two cents, when you've abused P as long as I have, you develop this subconscious standard of what sex is. Ultimate pleasure with as many woman as you want without any physical, mental or personal effort, absolutely no vulnerability and ZERO emotional connection. Truthfully, sex is nothing like this.. at all, so when I found myself with a girl, my brain didn't really even "turn on" sexually. That coupled with the embarrassment of not being sexually aroused eliminates and chance of maintaining an erection. What eventually worked for me was to stop over sexualizing.. well.. sex. I didn't focus at all on the physical stuff. I chased after making a real emotional connection with these girls and the physical stuff followed quite nicely in time. Also don't put pressure on your self. if you don't feel like have sex, just tell them that. If anything, I've found this drives them even more nuts haha.