i don't know how to cope with this grief-this loss and so much pain that's overflowing from inside my heart.i have masturbated and have run behind women so much that i hate myself as a person. i wish i were not this hurtful to everyone-i wish i could keep at least one person happy in my entire life-i wish i were not an addict and a happy person.it hurts a lot,i try to live with it. i'm sorry everyone-i could'nt be up to the mark.
Life is a painful experience by default. It just is. We are lucky if we can find some constructive focus, momentum and stability to rise above. Reshaping habits and changing behaviors is a long term difficult thing. Sometimes we fail, but we keep trying. Recently I read a quote that made a lot fundamental sense. It is simple, and hopefully inspiring to live by. "Accept your thoughts, control your actions." Good luck.
