One minute I was so strong, the next it was already happening. Like I was an observer I even thought "should I stop?" and didn't. I know what the trigger was, it was a huge hangover. I should have gone for a run or anything else. So now here is day one again.
" Like I was an observer" I can relate to that, you have the power to stop yourself from relapsing but the willpower is something difficult man. Train your self to have an escaping technique beforehand, like jogging as you suggest but don't decide on the moment, you can't trust your brain to chose wisely in such moment.
Thanks for your thoughts. I will use this to motivate me and having a plan in advance is a great idea. I was just reading about relapses recently and how your willpower is impaired. I knew it logically and it still got me! Not next time.