Day 24... made plans with the girl I was talking with to hangout at my house. She told me yesterday night she'd be coming over in the morning and I just so happened to have a wet dream a few hours before she showed up in. I was a little worried it would throw me off. And I was pissed it had to happen right before a date. Anyways, she came over and we were just kissing/touching and I was hard. Then randomly I went soft and couldn't get it back up and she wanted it to escalate. I was devastated... She could see something was going on - I became quiet and less enthused. But she became upset and started feeling insecure thinking it was cus of her. She came from a different city just to see me and was about to leave because she felt unwanted. I convinced her not to go and then I had a quick cold shower to regain my composure. Luckily I calmed down and got out of my own head and I ended up O'ing from oral for the first time. We didn't go all the way, but I am so thankful I was able to make a come back. I was terrified. Idk why this happened. Could've been anxiety or a result of the wet dream. 2 o's in one day. I need to be extra focused now and keep on.
