I relapsed 9 days ago, and I'm glad I did . Here's why.

At the beginning of this year (2014), I discovered No PMO. All of a sudden, everything made sense. The fact that I couldn't get excited by real sex or real women, the half-ass erections I would have with said women, the social anxiety that has seemingly gotten worse since I've grown older, the fact that pretty much nothing excited me anymore; everything felt (and still feels)... boring... vanilla...

Since the beginning of this year, I've gone 90 days without PMO... and then relapsed. After that relapse, I went another 30 days... and then relapsed again.

That last relapse, was 9 days ago, and here's why I'm glad it happened:

I was in the middle of the binge, when I realized something: Porn just doesn't do it for me anymore! Clearly, I'm in what I believe is a flatline, as I don't really care about women, but nor do I care about porn anymore! I just have no sexual urges, regardless of the method of delivery.

I don't know If I should be, but I'm happy about this, lol. For the first time in a long time, sex is not the only thing on my mind, and, not gonna lie, it feels good.

This is the perfect timing in my opinion, as I'm taking the MCAT in the next two months, and if this were a year ago, I'd be watching porn/ fapping instead of studying. I am starting another no PMO journey, and this time I think it's going to be permanent.

Did anybody else find that porn doesn't have the same effects any longer after a relapse? Or it just doesn't do it for you anymore? Thanks guys.

NOTE: I don't advise "testing" yourselves to see if you feel the same. I don't want to be responsible for any relapses lol.

 

You've never watched it? Or just not on your relapse?

 

Thanks! I'll have to take some of you to make sure my energy stores are kept on the up and up lol

 

Glad to see I'm not the only one. By the way Beauty, looks like we've both reset on the same day. In it to win it.

Thanks for the input Weiland. I'm studying for the next two months, I'm gonna kill two birds with one stone and use this time to rewire (learning/studying promotes neuron growth), and obviously without PMO. After the 90 days are up I'm gonna try to pursue some real life women and rewire further, lol.

 

Thanks Madrilenio,

I definitely try to learn from past mistakes, but sometimes I let them get the best of me, and I keep re-living them in my head. It's hard to move past them sometimes. PMO is definitely one of my biggest mistakes I've made, and I think I'd be a much different man by now had I stayed away from it.

It is what it is though, and at least I've identified my fault and I'm addressing it.

I definitely think you have an advantage by being a bit older. You (probably) didn't grow up with high-speed internet porn like we did. We got instant gratification while you had to practice a bit more patience. I didn't get high speed internet until I was about 16-17, and that's when my PMO usage really started to take off. That's why I'm even more scared for this younger generation, who pretty much all have broadband.