A Progressive Challenge-A different kind of challenge- all levels

I failed. How could I be so stupid?

I need to change something, because I’m making the same mistakes over and over. The first 10 days I have flatline, so I amble to handle the first week. But after the first week, it goes wrong.

The thing is, I have found a way to bypass the filter on my phone. And when I delete Instagram, it’s so easy to install it again when I feel urges.

Reducing my phone time is the first thing I’m gonna do, but I need more.

New goal: 14 days.

 

Good tips. I am gonna stay away from my phone the next days. Because that’s where it all starts when a unwanted thought pops up in my mind.

 

Going through the process of Installing Instagram again takes more than a few seconds. In the meantime there must be some "good thoughts" coming up. You can train yourself to catch on to those good thoughts and abort your decision.

The problem really comes with giving in to the cravings, somewhere along the line, you cross the point of no return - you know it when you do it....!! then you let your limbic system loose and then its automatic from there

 

I think i should star counting from the next day as it was a hard day for me and i relapsed so 0/ 14 days

 

Ok, it wasn't even first base level, just pecks doing that smoke thing we did first time (actually second too) (did use a little tongue once though). Man, I still feel literally high since then... ah, l'amour.

 

my highest i reached is 14 so i'mma go for 20 first

 

20/30

 

Day 4. Let's keep this going!

 

3 weeks! That´s awesome, brother!

 

Welcome!

 

Welcome, new guys! Day 23 for me. After a few gloomy days I seem to be lightening up again. Renewed energy, it feels great.

I seem to have come to a point, where a small period of depression is not the end of the world. I know it will pass in a matter of days, so I don't stress about it or think apocalyptically anymore. This feels great, but it took a lot of failing and grieving to get here.

So guys, if you feel a bit down or have no energy, don't stress about it - it will pass! Trust me.

 

4/30 no PMO and after a rocky night I feel tired but strong to get through the day. Busy with work and martial arts later so should sleep like a baby when my head hits my pillow tonight

 

That´s some good news, man! I´m happy for you. I have yet to find my way through these feelings.

 

3/7. I´ve realized I use P when I feel aimless. It starts with me taking my books out of the shelves, maybe trying some TV channels and watching YT videos. None of that gives me any peace or satisfaction. And then comes P, the unbeatable favourite, which brings the sweet oblivion for hours. But I´m determined to quit it forever, never turn that way again, as I know the price is too high. So I need some other rules. I am going to invent them along the way. The first two of them: 1) Finish every book you´ve started to read before moving to another 2) No TV before 8 p.m.
I know I need to find some meaning. Without it I´m a tiny boat in the middle of a shit storm of my own making.