A Progressive Challenge-A different kind of challenge- all levels

Just a quick update, about a dream that I had last night before I forget about it
**Trigger**
So, I was standing there with this girl from my college (not the one I was talking about before but another girl).
And we were talking and hugging and, I remember that I kinda grabbed her in my arms and started to rub her back and her butt while she's hugging me and, I asked her to hug me tighter and she did it (we were talking through the whole thing but I don't remember what about)
and then I woke up... xD

It was really short dream but I still enjoyed it)))
P.S > We weren't naked or anything like that, I remember her wearing black tights
and the whole scenario was outdoors so... Just wanted to point that out
(Sorry for my bad grammar)

 

**Trigger** Ah, gotta love horny dreams. There's this girl from my school I've always been really into, and the other day I was passing by her in a class and I passed by her maybe a foot away and walked away and that was it. No big deal, right? Right brain? Wrong, apparently...
That night I had a dream that we were passing by each other, except she stopped me, made me get on my knees and pretty much just shoved my face into her butt. Felt like I was there for about half an hour. The entire time I was trying to figure out what was going on, and she was giving some kind of presentation to the class like I wasn't even there... It was weird.

 

Guys, that is your porn brains going crazy for more. It's a sign that you are not over it yet.

I bet you were both having that feeling of you were doing something "wrong" - taking advantage of the situation or forcing your will through (and the dream went with it), or maybe being talked into it or scared of the other person - all these uncomfortable feelings accompanying the arousal. This is the thing that tells you it's still a porn thing. You are fantasizing in a way.

I've had dreams about drugs for 12 months now. It's not as often anymore - it used to be everyday. I just had one this morning too.

I don't know if I will ever get rid of them. Thing is, as long as I got this desire to get rid of something, this feeling that there is something wrong with me... As long as I have the underlying problem, I'm never going to stop looking for a way out.

 

Alright day 24 for me. Amazing that I got this far. But I feel stagnation. I'm sitting to much at the computer, with a 100 tabs open, just whatever spikes my interest just a little. I know this is the same novelty seeking behavior as porn addiction. I don't feel like I am making progress.

So, inspired by some of you guys, here goes tech free week for me. No computers, no internet on my phone for a week. This is the first time in years that I've done this. Gonna be a tough one. Wish me luck!

 

Good luck, mate! I guess it´s going to be a great experience for you. I wish I could do the same. Unfortunately, my work depends on me being online. So I try to put limits on my computer time. I subscribe to only three channels on YT (about one video a week) and have quited FB altogether. And the possible TV window is just from 8 - 10 p.m. for me now. I´ve started to practise a guided meditation everyday, as I see it as the easiest way to built this new habbit, in my case. I´m still ill, so I´m not able to exercise at the moment but I´m surely going to. My favourite ways to clear my head are swimming, walking and yoga. I even run every now and then, but that´s how I became ill this time, so I think I will wait to the spring. I don´t want to push myself too hard. Enjoy your tech free week! I envy you that!

 

Thanks! I realized I had to do some tings online before I could quit. O.K, done. Starting now!

 

4/7. I feel strong, as far as P is concerned. I was even surprised today, when I tried to download a movie (which is legal in my country - strange, I know, but true) for this evening with my family and a window with some nudes and F... for free notion opened on me, because my reaction was really calm and automatic. I closed the window, thinking: not for me anymore, thank you. I experienced something similar when I gave up on smoking 20 years ago. I had tried like 1000 times, but then the feeling came - it´s no longer an option for me. And I haven´t had a single puff since. And I have this strange feeling being young again, before I even met P. I haven´t explored than yet, though.

 

One day before my absolute best ever: 14 days. I'm as careful as I can. Every time I see anything midly triggering I look away. My mind is trying to make me believe that just a little peek will calm me but I perfectly know it's gonna do the exact opposite.

 

5/30 and that is okay for now. Each day as it comes

 

I was thinking about it too, can't wait for this day to finally come! thank's dude

 

Day 8 no PM. Day 4 no PMO. Having bad mood swings but know that it won't always be that way.

 

I really hate relapse but i don't know what it has become regular once again i want to get rid of it but it's really tough. Day 0/14

 

I am new and am in. First goal is this weekend, so 3 days