Xmas and new year holidays are coming but it just feels like any other ordinary weekend to me. Feels bad esp when people come up to you and ask you what are your plans for the upcoming holidays and I am like "relaxing at home with family".... How are you guys spending your holidays?
Not doing anything. Feeling lonely. Wish there was a girl to spend my time with. I'll need to keep trying to make a connection.
I kind of see the emotional fixation on the holidays as lemming like behavior. Even with people who celebrate it they would not deny it's very commercialized, and who actually listens to Christmas music, that much in a given period of time, and actually enjoy it? It's not like it's a genre people like. Now I'm not into ruining anyones good time or being a party pooper, but almost everything about it is just kind of .. well, fake. Like porn.
It's weird because I usually hate Christmas, but this year I am actually feeling more into Christmas than past years. A lot of it has to do with getting a great job this past August.
I agree. Are we better off thinking about things as they really are or getting lost in the blind perception of holiday joy? I don't know but I'd rather see things for what they are and I know I will never again enjoy Christmas like I did when I was a child. However I do still look forward to the excitement my future children will experience during the holidays and maybe that feeling will be reawakened even if it's only slightly.
I did a mini vacation in NYC by myself and kept my self busy sight seeing and visiting historic monuments in nyc's different boroughs. I've decided to just do vacay's in the upcoming years. So I can at least enjoy the season since, I do not celebrate the holidays any more (mostly due to me leaving religion and the commercialized present buying behind).... after NYC I flew to Ohio to visit family I haven't seen in many years.