4 Whole Weeks

I have been 4 weeks without porn or masturbation and it feels great. 4 weeks since I have let my SO down, but 4 weeks of me showing her that I can change and that she is worth it. This past week has been great! My SO and I haven't focused on my porn addiction and we have really just focused on how we really love each other. Before all this, my sex drive was really low because I would always use porn instead of my SO to relieve myself, but now that I have taken porn out, my sex drive has gone up a lot. My SO always wanted to have sex, but I was never in the mood. Now we have a matching sex drive! It is great!
This past month hasn't been easy, we had to deal with me cheating through messaging the girls of reddit. I let her down, but I will never do that again. We talked at length about why I did those things, what I was thinking, and what I will do differently. She was actually the one that told me that I may have a porn addiction along with a bunch of evidence. Every piece of evidence that I read was similar to my situation. It was like the fog cleared up my vision.
1 month of porn. I almost can't believe it. I have been using porn ever since I was 13 years old when I got my first laptop. I would masturbate every night and sometimes two or three times a day if my parents weren't home.
Everything on the internet is so closely connected to sex and porn. For example, I look for a drawn picture that I can use for my SO's D&D character and most of them are wearing skimpy outfits rather than looking badass. When I search for these pictures though, I feel disgust that people are drawing women this way, thankfully. Porn has come into my thoughts at random moments, but I have felt disgusted when thinking about it and have pushed the thoughts out of my head immediately after they show up. I think about other things, take a walk, start reading the book that I am currently reading, or think about my SO and how I still need to work for her.
Thank you to everyone that has given me encouraging words, and giving me the strength to continue on! This website is a huge help to know that I have the support of so many people!
As usual, this post is just a collection of random stuff that I think of while typing so it is all over the place. Thank you for your patience! haha