Starting Over, Goal: Seven Days in Hard Mode

Today I begin again, starting with a goal for real celibacy and chastity too. Here's what I intend:

1. Allowing my sexual, creative energy to flow through me as opposed to out of myself into fantasy and women around me.

by. . .

2. Daily spiritual practice

and. . .

3. No masturbation

4. No sex

5. No porn

6. No using women as objects to stimulate and relieve my turned on nature(such as in social contexts like on the street, in friendship and on Facebook)

7. No sexual fantasy

 

Thank you!

 

Thank you very much for the support.

Here's what I am noticing:

Today I have a bit more energy, as I actually went to bed last night instead of spending most of the night watching porn, etc.

My body feels more alive as I move through the world.

I find that I have more presence in my own body, and now I know that I am due for a nap.

It seems that I was masturbating so much that it was distorting my normal, daily activities.

Already, I don't feel as much as though I have to compensate for being "off" on the inside of myself.

 

Today I realize just how much time and energy I spent watching porn and touching myself. . .whew! It's a relief to not be doing that constantly!

Also, why did I ever do that? Because it felt pretty amazing, pretty often. And so there is addiction. . .

 

Today, I had a strong disagreement with a female friend of mine. She and I are not having sex, we are truly just friends. However, when we had our talk today and disagreed about something important (so I feel), it hurt.

And when I hurt, I am tempted to masturbate.

Of course, that is NOT good medicine. But I am tempted. . .so I needed to write about that here. . .thank you all!

 

Very important benefit of my now five days of being PMO free:

I have gotten a proper night's sleep!

PMO had become such a huge waste of time that I was almost never sleeping normally. Last night I fell asleep around ten pm and then woke up at around 6 am. 8 hours of deep restful sleep with no dreams (that I recall).

That's sexual sobriety . . .or one of its upsides.

Thank you.

 

Today I walked past an attractive woman who was sitting alone. I felt a natural draw to speak to her, and then a movement away from that natural sense that may be about my own isolation (so long practiced in PMO).

My idea is, more long term recovery from PMO would make such things as talking to beautiful women easier and just more free.

 

Thank you! That's actually a really good reminder. . .more exercise does help a great deal.

 

20Cents, thank you so much!

What a great reminder of how important this whole thing is to my overall life!

As I logged in tonight, I caught a glimpse on the landing page of something about turning my sexual energy into super powers. . .I am ready for some of that!

And I am really liking the way I feel today.

Thank you again.

 

I just noticed how easy it is for me to start using Facebook as porn!

Of course, I can use any woman at all, but I have been so used to using Facebook as my "non-porn" variety of porn, that it sneaks up on me sometimes.

I have to draw the line at masturbation it seems. . .because images that could be considered porn for me are just so very prevalent, even outside of watching "actual" porn.

In any case, I am grateful just to be from of PMO today. There is a joy in that simple fact.

Thank you.