i started 3 days ago and this is hell

hello im 14 male I used to masturbate 3-5 times a day honestly I did it because I had
nothing going on in life I was constantly bored and hey I though masturbating is fun
why not waste my time doing that until I find something I like back then I did it once a
day or once every second day after while it was once a day then twice a day and now
3-5 times a day and I don't really like that I have the need to do it primarily because
when im on a vacation with my family or something I have to sneak off into the
bathroom to fap and I really hate that doing it in my bedroom when I got nothing else is
fine with me but sneaking off to do it in a bathroom while on vacation disgusts me and
it is what first got me to look into this nofap thing now I have 2 main reasons for doing it
first is that porn stopped being enjoyable the only thing that could arouse me anymore
and barely at that is gore hentai and that worried me because porn started becoming
less and less enjoyable and im worried that I will start chasing women like some sort a
mangina and I really don't want that and the second reason is because I heard nofap
increases testosterone which helps build muscle and I made a bet with a friend that
when I comeback from Serbia I will be more muscled then him so that's the backstory
and everything now the journey the first day was hard not much to be said about it
now the second day is when the shit started kicking in like really kicking in about 3-4
hours after I woke up I went to watch anime and (cringe warning) I started to think
about how ungrateful those bastards in the anime are like you have this cute godly
loyal waifu who loves you and you just fucking ignore I started to got so pissed I
started to twitch and then I though about how ugly bastards rape anime girls in
hentais and I started to twitch iven more so the whole day was spent trying not to
think about that and it was hard really hard and on top of that the urge to masturbate
was really high now im on my third day the worst so far I feel so horrid I feel like a
cocaine addict getting off cocaine my head hurts I feel like I got the cold the bottom
most part where the ribs connect in the middle of the chest hurts I feel like theres a
huge lump stuck in my guts and it hurts and I feel like im going to throw up worst of
all I cant give up now because I have the feeling if I quit now it wouldent fix It I feel
like I have to wait a day or 2 before masturbating to fix it so im stuck I feel absolutely
horrid this is so bad im praying to god the 4th day gets a little better because if not
honestly idk what im gonna do