transwoman PORN :(

Hey Blind Willie
Thanks for posting this. At the end of my Porn watching days (9 days and b4 10 days - not to long) I was watching transwomen and sissies and to be honest I am thinking about them now. I did not watch gay vid's as I am not gay and do not find these types of vid's excite me but found transwomen and sissies different and did excite me. I think i was drawn to their feminine side, thin, hairless, not all but most of them. I had not really thought about transwomen and sissies until I read the your journal and its been in my head since last night. So I figured I would write about it. Today I am on high alert and see a trigger in your post, but I am to be realistic and know fapping to transwomen and sissies is not a healthy direction for me. From what I understand that when we watch porn eventually we need to go to the next level to get off, we open a bunch of pic's continually or we go from vid to vid to get us off, our porn tastes escalate in order to get off.
I really like what Anthrope said about

This is what I want to do.
Anyway Thanks again for posting this.
Cheers

 

Thank you Jack; glad to know you liked it.

Thinking over this thread, I'd like to address another question that pops up in the minds of those who've seen transwoman porn.

"OMG - I am watching transwoman porn, am I becoming gay?!"

All right. I'll give you an opinion piece on this. First, the disclaimer. I personally value every living being. If you're gay, more power to you. You are every last bit deserving of love and respect as I am. If you're transsexual or transvestite, the same thing. You're no less than anyone else.

With that out of the way, I am personally very heterosexual. Girls do it for me. I'm simply wired that way. But I did watch transwoman porn for a short period of time, and I loved it when I watched it. Here's the key though. I enjoyed the feminine transwomen. I have a theory on why guys who stumble on transwoman porn get hooked on it.

It is the same reason why TV shows get new seasons and new viewers. Why would an audience watch the same TV show if it had the same characters and nothing novel? It wouldn't. But audiences wouldn't continue to watch the same TV show if there was too much novelty. So, what is the happy medium?

First, make a TV show that gives an audience a context it can relate to.
Second, get the audience used to that context, so that they start relating to the context you've created.
Third, change the context in tiny ways, so that the audience can still relate to your TV show, but also enjoy the thrill of the novelty of these tiny changes.

In other words, this is really taking charge of how you use the Coolidge effect.

Now, you use porn for a few years and get used to seeing hot women with breasts and vaginas and penises inserted into vaginas and other places. Then you stumble on images that have almost the same context. There are still these human beings who look like women all over; except instead of having a vagina into which a penis can be inserted, she has a penis of her own. So you have all the context of the heterosexual porn you were used to, plus one novelty. Wow! Your brain fires up. You want more! You want more!

Does this make you gay? I watched transwoman porn with enough intensity at some point, but I am very heterosexual still. In fact I prefer it if I am the only male in my fantasies. It's me and a land of hot women. I think there's lots of guys who will admit to the same thing.

Can a person become gay after being straight; perhaps. Should you worry about it. Nope.

Instead work on your journey to becoming PMO free with all your mental and physical resources. Focus on your goals. Focus on the specifics of the things you want in your life; not on the specifics of the things you want to leave behind. As you give your real goals in life more airtime, you will find that even your concerns about transwoman porn will no longer bind you, simply because you're not giving them attention.

You maybe right in some cases, username1; this may explain why with a testosterone dip some guys gravitate to cross dressing etc. I am not sure this happens to all hardcore porn users though. Some go the other way, and start to become people who indulge in violent fantasies where they are dominant. I don't have an explanation... I guess it takes all kinds.

 

Excellent explanation.

 

It is interesting to see that many guys are actually in the same situation as me. But I still think that my situation is kind of worse...
I started watching weird porn when I was 16 years old (normal porn much earlier, but also much more scarce porn ressources, from 16 it was thanks to broadband internet and P2P like eMule, back then all porn websites were blocked in my country). This wasn't very intense as I used to watch only on weekends but masturbated quite a lot.

Then it got even worse when I went to study in another country in Europe, living alone for the first time, I had a lot of privacy and started watching porn daily. I was 19 and didn't really care about it back then. In 2012 I somehow landed on sissy feminisation JOI related stuff etc.. That was really intense and since then I can't stop it. for 2 years now, the few times where I make it for few days without masturbation, this things gets me back to it. Its a horrible addiction I trying to fight everyday. The longest period I could stop porn was 3 weeks.

And if this wasn't bad enough, I also got a mean ED. An ED that doesn't like condoms. As uncomfortable as the situation is with a girl, it happened that I have got unprotected sex. The day after I got really stressed then calmed down. Then it happens again, and again... Til it happens once with a transwoman in south east Asia. Then I got really stressed and it was the period of my life waiting to do HIV test. It was negative but guess what? I still have this bad habit. Porn is going to kill me one day, literally!!! You could say It is me and not porn which is also true but it is porn that lead me to this state. I can estimate myself lucky now that on the 20 women I slept with, all of them were safe but I do know that one day I am going to meet the wrong person if I keep doing this (Murphy's law). Few times I actually tried to use condoms but then failed, resulting in a night with just oral sex (but awkward situation).

Now I am 25, and I really thing that growing up with porn messed up with my mind (had sex for the first time when I was late 22) and these are few observations I could make about myself:

-I do know that if I stop, 3 weeks are enough as reboot as I could use condoms with no problems after such a period, but back then I had a girlfriend that could motivate me and that knew my problems (except the feminisation part).

-I do know that my brain physically changed and that it is normal to have those cravings because I teach my brain to have them as in any other additcion, reward based cravings.

-When I stop watching porn for a week, sleeping with a girl is the worst thing that could happen. Even without protection, I am totally dead and can't sustain an erection for more than few minutes (if not 1). What happens next is that the day after, i feel frustrated and fall back to porn. Then my old fetishes come back violently and take their revenge (went up to 8 times masturbating per day once)

-When I get horny for some reason, my way of thinking totally changes. It is as if I really wanted what I was doing and that I didn't even care about all my problems and fears from disease. I still try to think about it but my cravings are just way too strong (my brain is like "yeah but who cares").

-If I watch porn 2 days or 3 days before having sex with a girl, sex is good and erection is fine (but still get ED if use condom)

-I started doing intense sport daily (Insanity workout if you heard about it, which is really INTENSE), I have to say it helps for real (no cravings after the workout, after 6 weeks now I can't remember a day where I masturbated after a session of workout) but a day is long and cravings can appear at any moments (I do my workout at night mostly).

-Triggers can be quite dangerous. You scroll up and down in facebook the you land on a picture of a sexy women or a model's page that facebook is suggesting you to like. This can really be lethal.

-Very helpful is to set a challenge with close friends. No porn for 3 weeks period or so. And with daily feedback. This REALLY works but I only tried it once and we didn't manage to go all the way til the end (I messed up first in a stupid way)

-Stress and frustration on any other field lead to masturbation in my case. Frustration at work, argument with some person, inability to understand something from the lecture, and especially procrastination when I try to write something (essay or report).

-After few days of no masturbation, one little masturbation, even without porn is like this small crack in a water tank, it will just make it explode.

Everything else is fine in my life right now except this one only thing. I would be interested to hear of other people share my experiences, expecially the condom related ED.

 

You can do this. But right now, like many of us, your brain is literally addicted. Look at yourbrainonporn.com for information and strategies to help (and the many threads of others that have helpful strategies). It may be hard to imagine life without your addiction, but it's waiting for you. I never thought I could go as long as I have now (almost 12 days). A month ago, that would have been unthinkable for me. But now that I've done it, it feels good and right, and I have the confidence to keep going. I'm seeing how there's so much more than sex in this world. And I feel calmer, happier, and just generally better about myself.

Some things I've done that have helped:
I don't look at anything I used to look at for sexual stimulation, including porn (obviously), escort ads, youtube videos, Facebook photos, etc.
Whenever I have a sexual thought, urge, desire, or fantasy, I snap a rubber band lightly on my wrist. It snaps me back to reality and stops me in my tracks so I don't keep indulging myself in it.
I leave my bedroom door open at all times.
I installed software that blocks adult content.
I've set this website to be the first thing I see whenever I open any web browser (on computer, iPad, or iPhone).
I read and post on this site several times a day, and I put some time in encouraging and supporting others.
I look at my counter all the time and just coach myself to make it a few more hours to the next day.

Hope some of this helps!

 

I like this idea

Thank you

 

I'd also like to add that transwoman porn must the most disturbing aspect of Porn Addiction and the alarming way in which our brains are manipulated.

In the 6 months leading up to me finding, researching and beginning NoFap I was endlessly looking at transwoman hook-up sites, trans nightclubs and Escort listings - all building up to finding the 'perfect' one for causal sex.

They were never feminine enough though. And that was obviously my innate tastes still lingering inside me and fighting back.

How fucked-up it all seems upon reflection.

NoFap saved me just in time.

 

Suilat I have that same problem. When I was with my last girlfriend, I couldn't get hard with a condom, so we only had sex without condoms. I had to constantly buy the morning after pills for her. It's dangerous and stupid. Man I wish I was normal.

 

Wahou ! I like this theory ! It sounds logic !

Looking to much porn leads me too into transwoman, sissy, submission stuff... And it's strange, it does not seem natural at all, like u know... "If I was not looking P would I have had the same fantasies?" "is this really me?"

 

Hello brother,
Let us know about you current conditions. Is transwoman thing out of your life completely?