Finally found the root of my problems (?)

bobbiebob · Sep 8, 2018

Hello guys, I want to talk about a thing that might seems kinda weird, but lets go.

It's about they way I m. I don't do m like most of you average man do it. I mean, the way I m is different from most people.

Warning, paragraph below might be triggering for some people, but here goes the way I m. If you're dealing with urges or don't want to know things you can't forget, skip to the next paragraph.
The way I m is I push my pp back and forth on a floor with position of laying down but with stomach on bottom, and cum on pants. No touching from hand included. Might be a little hard to be satisfied with this way, but since I discovered this way before I knew how to m like normal people, I'm already attached to this.

I feel like this is the root problrm of why, even when I am on a long streak (almost 4 months) I feel like I already healed, but It still hard for me to be friends with some kind of people (the outgoing one, you know). And just now I just heard noises from my bathroom which I suspect my brother was m-ing lmao, but even if he pmo, his life is better than me who is in a long streak.

Thank you for the one who has read this long, please share your thought on this. I really need guidance. (Also don't worry, no matter what happens, I'm never jumping to pmo again.)

Edit : I'm sorry if my language is a bit difficult to understand so heres the question :
Does the way I m change my personality to be different from most of people?

mIRAF · Sep 8, 2018

I think i understood your question tho not quite.
Personality is the sum of all the little social and cultural adaptations a man has in order to fit in and it is something forever changing.
A persona(think that's the word for it) is like a mask that you can put on, it's basically temporarilly changing the way you act to better fit in a situation.
If by the way you are you mean what your habits are then no, your personality will not be affected, but rather your temper.
The longer an individual uses a certain persona the bigger the chances are that at some point he will believe that that persona is who he is by default even if it is just an act, just a mask they put on.
If you were to be talking to some people while having the idea that your mind is dirty perverted and overall horrible stuck in your mind then the natural way that you will be acting will be a lot more reserved because of the fact that you believe that there is something wrong with you. This is why for most people stoping watching porn first is easier as it won't make them feel wrong about themselves thus allowing them to actually talk and connect with other people. I hope i answered your question and if you would like to ask anything else I'll gladly try helping with an answer.

bobbiebob · Sep 8, 2018

mIRAF said: ↑

I think i understood your question tho not quite.
Personality is the sum of all the little social and cultural adaptations a man has in order to fit in and it is something forever changing.
A persona(think that's the word for it) is like a mask that you can put on, it's basically temporarilly changing the way you act to better fit in a situation.
If by the way you are you mean what your habits are then no, your personality will not be affected, but rather your temper.
The longer an individual uses a certain persona the bigger the chances are that at some point he will believe that that persona is who he is by default even if it is just an act, just a mask they put on.
If you were to be talking to some people while having the idea that your mind is dirty perverted and overall horrible stuck in your mind then the natural way that you will be acting will be a lot more reserved because of the fact that you believe that there is something wrong with you. This is why for most people stoping watching porn first is easier as it won't make them feel wrong about themselves thus allowing them to actually talk and connect with other people. I hope i answered your question and if you would like to ask anything else I'll gladly try helping with an answer.
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Whoa thanks for the reply, you cleared up some things in my mind. I feel like I've been using this "mask" for too long already, but about the idea that I have a dirty mind or perverted mind, nooe, i think thats not. What I'm telling myself overtime is the duration of my nofap, and that boosts my confident somehow. And I think I can't let this feeling/mask go, because when I don't tell myself that I quitted pmo ages ago, sometimes I feel like I'm my old self (struggle with women, trouble answering normal question, etc). I think I need to stop doing these things, but I hope it doesn't turns out bad tho, thanks for clearing my mind!

Deleted Account · Sep 8, 2018

Yes it is still masturbation. I know a guy who told me he did it that way. The trouble he had was before sleep. The habit of rubbing against the bed can be overwhelming especially when you tense and want to fall asleep quick.

Deleted Account · Sep 8, 2018

My advice is to be careful. And try sleeping on your back if it troubles you at night.
http://www.nofapacademy.com/downloads/Brain-Hacks.pdf
This book also helped me shape my mind. To counter thoughts and create strong shield thoughts...

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