75 Days Semi Success

Hello Brothers,

I reached day 75 today. It hasn’t been fun but I’m sticking it out.

Background:
I’m 29 and I’ve been watching porn since I was 10 and masturbating 1-3x a day since I was 14. 3x a day, for hours at a time, for the past 2 years. My taste also got more and more raunchy. The old normal stuff wouldn’t do it for me anymore. I lived with my girlfriend and didn’t have sex with her for a year because I’d rather PMO. It ruined our intimacy. I also developed PIED about 2 years ago and in July I decided to quit cold turkey. This is the longest I’ve ever gone w/O porn. 75 days now no PMO. I have been having sex occasionally tho.

The Good:
I’m cured of PIED! I’ve had sex multiple times and it works like a champ! When I started this journey in July I had bad PIED. My dick would work 30% of the time. That’s even after receiving oral. So trust me when I say hang in there. You can and will recover.

I don’t even have the urge to watch porn now. I still want to masturbate but I resist. And I think that’s really more of me wanting to have sex more than anything.

For the first time in a long time I’m actually horny. I never really realized how before even when I would PMO or have sex it was really out of habit. Not because I was horny. I got my libido back!

The Bad:
Since about day 10 of my journey I’ve had horrible anxiety, brain fog, insomnia, lethargy, and lack of appetite. Which leads to a depressive state. It fucking sucks. (The lethargy is gone for the most part) I’ve never experienced this in my life. It’s horrible and I know it’s PAWS (post acute withdrawal). I know my brain is healing from 15 years of daily PMO. And it will take longer than 2 months being sober to heal/reboot.

My doctor even prescribed me and antidepressant because of my symptoms. Especially the lack of sleep and no appetite which lead to weight loss. I took it for 4 days and couldn’t take the side effects. I’m looking into supplements like Ashwagandha, SAM-e, and CBD. Not saying I’m going to take them but I’ll do my research.

Just wanted to update you on my progress. Hopefully with time the withdrawal symptoms will fade. Remember physically you will recover. There is nothing physically wrong with you. It’s brain conditioning. Nothing more, nothing less. I still don’t get morning wood or wet dreams but my dick works fine so don’t get caught up in those as checkpoints. Good luck brothers!

 

Thanks fellas!