The Origins of Your Porn Habit

I also started with Playboy, a single issue in my grandfather's bathroom. A few years later I discovered late-night cable. That was my only source until I got my own computer my senior year of high school. Back then most people had never heard of the internet, so I got my P from dialing into local BBS systems that weren't policed well enough to keep me away from the adult material. It was almost entirely softcore. The hardcore stuff never did much for me.

 

I started softcore. I went to a buddy's house when I was around 12-13 yrs old and he had an illegal cable box set up. One day he invited me over and while giggling he told me check this out. I remember my first scene still. It was a jacuzzi scene completely softcore of a couple of blondes performing. Even back then I knew it was just a performance and even back then I still saw it as choreographed mechanical. After that day, I invited myself to my friends house and when he would be away I would immediately turn to the spice channel every opportunity I got despite his family being around. I would change the channel back if they got close. Only one time he detected I was watching it and he asks, what was that music I heard? I said nothing just some cartoon show, lol.

But, then I did not watch porn at all until 15-16 yrs old when puberty really took affect. But I did not know how to M and finally did at age 17. And, that was a wrap. I M'd once a week or twice a week for many years. But,t hen I started doing it very frequently sometimes 3 times in a day.

Laws are meant to protect us but in this case the law actually harms us with it's neglect. All we have to do in order to keep porn free and out of the eyes of children is to charge a 0 dollar viewing fee for adults only. Children would not have the means to watch it. But, instead we got a president paying pornstars for sex and everyone else on the porn industries payroll...eeeekhhh!!!!!! God please help my 4 yr old nephew's generation from every seeing such filth.

 

I found some hardcore porn magazines when I was 10 or 11 and watched them with my class mate. Later we tried some of those positions naked together. Ok, it was a hetero magazine, we were 2 boys. But we did some of those actions we saw. After that I few years I didn't really saw porn. When I was 16 or 17 I saw internet porn for the first time.

 

I started pretty late. First it started with my first own TV. I was about 15 or 16 years old. I discovered Softcore TV-advertisement for cam-websites, while watching TV late in the night.

Sometimes I went to these pages, but I never M'd, because I didn't knew how it works. So I also didn't had any pleasure. I only watched the advertisements on TV. Got aroused and that's it.

One night, about 2 years ago I googled how to M and watched someone on a free cam-website. Here my story begins.

I often hung around on 9GAG (the trigger itself) and took advices for professional actresses.

Now PMO is my biggest problem.

 

10 yo, hardcore internet porn at friends house
13 yo, got my own computer, found soft core games on game websites made for children and youth, over time led me to hardcore porn games, led me to internet porn
18 yo, realized that I couldn't stop, tried to get out of it
21 yo, been free from porn for 9 months

 

The origins of my porn habit were a really old TV show called Eurotrash, which my mother used to watch because of how bizarre it was. This show contained nudity on pretty much every episode. I'm not sure where we got it from but we had Eurotrash's Best Bits on video and I would take the tape to my room and constantly rewatch a scene showing woman walking around naked in, like, Prague or something. It snowballed from there.

 

I was young, around 2nd or 3rd grade of primary school (7-8 years old) and playing in the school's playground with my younger sister. Two of my classmates showed up and asked me if I wanted to see porn. I didn't even know what it was, they told me "naked women". I thought that they would take me in a hall full of naked women chatting. They told me to follow them. We got in an abandoned storage next to the playground, inside there were some 500 year old desks. One of my classmate put his hand under a desk and started searching. He got a glossy book. I think it belonged to his older brother. They started changing the pages quickly and stopped only at the most significant. I couldn't even understand what I saw. Ok, I new they were breasts and vaginas, but I was so innocent... I thought that the penises were tigers' legs and the BJs were women drinking piss. I wondered why would women be photoed naked with a tiger's leg under their body...

Spoiler: Long story

Later on, some kids in primary school got cellphones with color screens and able to play videos. I could watch some from their cellphones. Even when I got a cellphone, I couldn't get porn, as most of the time my mother was exploring it and I liked showing everybody my other funny videos, without accidentally playing something inappropriate. Finally, I found how to lock the menu and got some videos.
In the meanwhile, my cousin got some magazines from a friend and was hiding them in a table game box. Also, some TV channels were playing porn, just women teasing and taking bras off. When we were alone in my house, we watched movies with sex scenes and paused the DVD at the points of nudity.
A few months later, he found a porn DVD in his father's truck and brought it inside his house. Eventually, after school, we were alone in his house and watched it. It was the hardest boner I can remember. However, he was masturbating while I didn't feel the urge to do so.
About that time, we bought a family desktop. Dial up connection was too slow for video, so I watched pics rarely. Later, we got a GSM connection, which was faster and I could watch videos. I also got a smartphone which allowed me to download videos from open wifi and watch it later at home. This lasted until I left home for studies, my father bought me a laptop during the second semester and some months later, I got a high speed GSM connection. I started spending many hours watching videos. When I rent a new home, I got an ADSL connection, so I was alone, single and had unlimited data. Even when I found a GF, my porn consumption didn't get reduced. After I finished my studies, I moved back with my parents and have ADSL. Still single and alone, so practically, unlimited time for porn. Until I found nofap...

 

Found ultra hardcore porn mags in a park garbage can. About 10-11 years old. These were no playboys that’s all I’ll say

 

This might sound weird but for me it actually started when i was around 6 or 7.

I was already thinking about sex etc at that age... To be honest I don't know if i should be concerned about that or if it is normal...

 

Mine is incredibly weird because for when I first encountered porn, it wasn't typical porn, it was hentai instead. It was hentai of The Simpsons to be specific. I know, it's super weird. Thankfully though, I closed out of disgust and never came back there again. Ever.

I was about 10 at the time. I never got addicted to this shit until I was 12 and when I did, it was M and O. I didn't discover P again until I turned 14. Thankfully though, I quit soon after turning 15 so it was rather short-lived.

 

When i was 10 my brother and his friends came up with a lot of porn magazines, i remember the first porn i saw at 10 was a hardcore lesbian magazine, but i saw even transexuals and a other hentai things, all this at 10, you can imagine at 13 when i had a computer with internet...

I think that watching that stuff so early fucked me up a lot.

 

At school friends talked about it all the time. I wanted to join in th conversation, so one night when I was 12/13 I googled one of the websites and looked at stuff.

Crazy, I didn't even know what masturbation was TBH, just knew I got a funny excited feeling. Eventually I 'discovered myself' and I was hooked. I wanted to be able to join in the conversation with my mates and this was how I did it!

 

I was a loner and used the internet for my relief. Eventually you will stumble onto pornography.

 

I found my dads VHS porn tapes in the attic when i was around 9. I watched them late at night when my parents supposedly slept and i learned to masturbate. Even if they knew what i was doing(which they probably did; i wasnt Batman, i was a 9 yr old kid in front of a huge TV in the living room), they wouldnt confront me cause they didnt know how to deal with it. Few years later i covered the rest of porn when i got internet, but by then i already had most of the pattern built by VHS porn.

 

Sounds like most of us were exposed to it somewhere between 6 and 16.

Pretty sad.

 

OMG lol, same here on CH4 lmaoo. That's when it all started! Was in year 8 at school. Those egg heads ffs

 

I could go pre-15, but I blame teen weed and grown puberty memories, for any fabricated memories about my boy bed humping thing I used to do; it was nothing then.
6 year old me does not ejac. until 13, so PMO is nonexistent.
I was 15, because and it was a nude woman ad in a gaming magazine. Woman with road map drawn on her naked body.
Used boxy CGI, PSX girls on my brother's PSX, in his room like a ninja...
Fighting game half nude anime girls, Dark Stalkers, Felica Catwoman and Morgan Aslut.
Stuff, and Maxim, and Playboy, and Online... TGP(name) and TGP(name)

Fast forward... Because nobody should be concerned about the past, and ruminating underage self fantasy.
15 years later in my 30's I'm wrangling Youtube suggestions to obscure Eureopean baby pageants, with 300k+ views, and swimsuit/dance models, and everything in between, up to barnyard stuff on a website found on Google in 2012, still online today, that I suspect is the "dark web" mentioned on my Creditwise report that lowered my credit score to lt; 700.

It's about the imagery, mostly. I have anhedoneous ejac., and G.I. injury from butt stuff.
I want to die, of logical need almost, more than depression.
On the b. forum, a forum such as this, an attractive woman with an actual pig gets posted.
I'm Darwin Award, dumb.
And people talk about it and it goes into the tube.
My gut knows it's trafficking.