Sometimes when I’m tempted to look at porn I type in different, not sexual, random words in an image search to see what comes up. I don’t know why I do this but it’s something that I have always done. So I did this a few minutes ago and two really small nude images came up. So I hurried up and backed out a second later, and thought about what I was doing. I decided to not continue and came here to read what others are going though to get out of my head. I honestly don’t remember much about the pictures other than they were nude drawings. These were also nothing like what I normally look at. (I’m into pretty hardcore stuff) I did realize that I was struggling when I started the search though, and I did it because I was struggling. So I don’t know. I know that this is all probably weird and stupid. I also know that the counter is purely psychological. I guess I just take all of this very seriously. I want to do this right and for the days on the counter to mean something. I do have a tendency to get very obsessive about things though. It is very easy for me to make unnecessary rules that will bog me down. So what do you think? Should I reset my counter for something like this, or only reset it for times that I actually study the pictures?
@DarofDarmar lol yes i was tired when I wrote answer and i thought the answer was funny. although the gist of what my previous post was is true i will do a more full answer. I guess dont take the counter too seriously, but if you want to establish some general rules for when to reset it here is my suggestion: when you intentionally looking up porn and you see it, then i would reset the counter. if you just see porn randomly and dont masturbate, then i wouldn't reset it. i would base the counter and your goals off of what is in your control. you cannot control when you accidentally see p, but you can control your intentions and your actions.
In my opinion it's only a relapse if you orgasm. I'm not sure about the whole streak counter. I used to obsess over it, but it's really not about the days. It's about going the rest of your life without pmo. Obsessing over what day you're on can really fuck you over. I mean, it's good if you're on day 100 or something like that, but if you were to relapse on day 101 then to go back to day 0 would be ABSOLUTELY soul-crushing. Truth is it wouldn't be too big of a deal. Unfortunate yes, but not the end of the world. It's seeing that day counter go back to 0 that can be so fucking devastating. I went 20 days recently and I ended up relapsing 3 times over a period of 2 days. Truth is it definitely hurt, but I can tell it didn't undo all of my progress. It really didn't. My depression is still at bay and my anxiety is still under control. Anyway, hope that helps.
