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Blew it at 68 Days

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by insideman, Jan 13, 2015.

  1. insideman

    insideman Fapstronaut

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    It had been coming. Edging in bed. Thinking of past GFs. Then a pic or two, then a erotic story (telling myself that vids are worse), then finally watching a video and MO.

    What a shitty feeling.

    Fuck.

    It crept up on me. I saw it too.

    FUCK :mad:
     
  2. heyitshannes

    heyitshannes Fapstronaut

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    68 days are awesome dude. Keep building on that. Don't get too upset with yourself. Just get up and keep going forward. ^_^
     
  3. Monster Carrot

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    Man the same thing happened to me at around 3 weeks. I knew it was coming yet I kept tempting myself for days on end. Finally I just finished the job to get it over with. Crappiest feeling ever. I'm starting down that road right now myself, as a matter of fact...
     
  4. Malty88

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    Hey,

    Same thing for me...Edging the last 3 days....and this night..just went all the way...also started with just one innocent picture on facebook...then I was on Chive...looking at " Hump " day....and ended with watching a video....

    Got to keep going though...seen massive changes since I started this journey...
    Don't give up, I have only made till 31 days so far...your at 68 days ! great job !
     
  5. Jo3

    Jo3 Fapstronaut

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    68 is really good. I almost made it to my goal. It's hard when you don't hard reset. I don't know if I am ready to really turn off anything that is tempting.
     
  6. Nightwing

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    68 days is awesome bro! I have the same feelings and I didn't know edging extends to fidgeting in bed as I do out of habit. That's the hard part for me, the habit of my hands automatically wondering down there when I'm lying down. I'm only 11 days into it and I am seeing the benefits but 68 days bro! I know you're not feeling good about now but you've achieved something incredible that I am aiming to aspire to. Cheers for sharing your thoughts.
     
  7. SpideyMan

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    68 days? Dude I can't even go for 5 days. You are doing great. Keep up the good work.
     
  8. chunique

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    My goal is 100 days, until today I have insisted for 7 days. I blew it today. Next step I want to make it to 100 days! Come on together.
     
  9. insideman

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    Thanks guys for the great support!

    68 days was my first attempt.

    Woke up today feeling that I needed this - to make me realise I never want to have this feeling of failure again.

    I can go into my second try with experience and knowledge!
     
  10. SpideyMan

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    If you were able to get 68 days on your FIRST attempt, then I consider you a very strong person. You did great and I think you deserve a pat on the back for that. :)

    I am having trouble because I'm battling a PMO addiction and OCD at the same time. I have very little control over myself and it's not at all easy. :(
     
  11. MJ Warrior 93

    MJ Warrior 93 Fapstronaut

    68? Dude, that was excellent. Don't worry, you're not the only one. I once spent 6 months of NoFap, then I relapsed. I once spent 70 days, then I relapsed. Never give up. You can still rise and rise until you touch then sky and feel the spirit flowing free in the air.
     
  12. Oldham

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    Yes, I agree with the posters.
    Just remember that the 68 days represent a success not a failure.
    When you go for the 90 days again, remember the days are going to pass anyway.
    It's not at all like starting from zero because you have already succeeded.
     
  13. No SPMO

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    always remember ...

    IF I QUIT NOW, I WILL SOON BE BACK TO WHERE ITS STARTED ....

    AND WHEN I STARTED, I WAS DESPERATELY WISHING TO BE WHERE I AM NOW ...
     
  14. immanuel.iitd

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    I gave up on 31 day. I am feeling guilty
     
  15. insideman

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    Support is overwhelming - thank you!!

    I wouldnt say I was a strong person, I just used the techniques that others have spoken about - keep busy, stay occupied and dont put yourself in situations where you can relapse.

    I am not going to say I'm not at fault or use this as an excuse but I believe my downfall was recovering from flu over the New Year period...

    I couldnt exercise, train in the park, go out to parties, meet new people, cook, clean, anything! And I was too fed up to read, watch tv etc all the time.

    Day 60 - Thats when I started fantasizing non-stop about girls Ive been with, edging in bed and accepting that my behaviour was just until Im better, just until Im back to normal life. From there the next 8 days and nights I was obsessed with sex (slowly being drawn in by stories, pics then porn vids) and it lead me back to PMO last night.

    Fuck the regret! I feel renewed now and optimistic for my second stint. Ive seen the patterns and weaknesses and you guys have spurred me on too!

    Stay strong... AND KEEP BUSY
     
  16. indiana.

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    I've been there, I've relapsed after over 100 days. Really all you can do is get back up and go forward, there's nothing else. You didn't 'lose' those 68 days. The changes in your brain happened, the best thing now is to keep moving forward.

    You're doing great and you're strong.
    It will be okay.
    Indiana.
     
  17. Eric Forman

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    The best thing that happened to me is to make it a rule to not touch myself. Not a possibility (only when peeing etc). Still got a long road to go (22 days in) but it has helped me tremendously compared to the last times I tried the challenge.
     

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