Haven't made much progress and it's been almost a year

How long does it take to rewire and get rid of old fetishes? This shit's ruining my life guys. I just want to contain myself again/have my sanity back

 

Thanks man, I'll keep going. I've literally been vanilla for almost a year but get angry when these "old visuals" pop up into my head from time to time (although I have the power to push em away the few times I do/have fapped). It's frustrating and confusing

 

I'll try that, thank

 

Your post here is saying it all... your brain is still associating your masturbation sessions with your fetishes. Fetishes are very hard to reverse since they involve a sort of hyperstimulation that your brain has used to overcome tolerance. So when not enough time has passed for your brain to weaken those pathways involving fetishes, it will remind you of them when you masturbate. I'm sure you have heard the saying 'neurons that fire together, wire together.' This is exactly what's going on here. In order to truly weaken those pathways involving fetishes, which will probably always be there (weakened or not), you'll have to avoid sexual stimulation of all kinds, be it masturbation or porn. Fantasy has rewired your brain in a very profound way. In order to lose these fetishes the only solution really is avoiding sexual fantasy for a very long time, so no porn or masturbation.

 

Good words and advice, will do