LAST MEN STANDING FOREVER CHALLENGE daily check in

240th day

 

day 9
freedom is delicious !!

 

dont give up
You r strong

 

Day 27 checkin. All good

 

Just a random post... I am still going strong and hope everyone else is also doing great.

 

Great to see you're still going strong and lighting up the big numbers, man. On witnessing many relapses in this challenge, its great to see that success and PMO freedom is possible!.. Good effort.

 

I completely agree seeing it is great and can’t wait for me to post numbers like that. I know it is just a matter of time day 4 of infinity.

 

If you want the big numbers, the first thing i would do is get as far away from a last man standing challenge as possible. I'm totally serious, this challenge will do more harm than good to anyone starting out. When you get serious urges, to 'NEVER MO AGAIN' is a totally soul destroying notion that will destroy your will (hence all the repeated relapses from new starters in this challenge, so predictable an outcome it's been painful to witness).

To not MO for a month, is a definable goal, a winning line, the brain can focus on this, it's achievable, and it will build momentum around abstinence and give you confidence in a mini-win. A last man standing challenge has no winning line, it is potentially years, decades, or until you die, the brain can't see the end line and it is an impossible goal for anyone without any abstinence experience and momentum - failure is inevitable. It only becomes a possible and reasonable objective when an MO/PMO abstinence life has already been accomplished, at least over several months.

 

Talk to her man, tell her how you feel. You only live once and if it doesnt go well it’s fine. On to the next one. You can’t hide your feelings from everyone man.

 

Best of luck ! She sounds like a special lady ,

 

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I can see ur concern. But. This is something I have tried for a long time I’ve done the thirty days before. But didn’t have a good support group. So I’m going to try this until something happens. Hopefully it doesn’t but I’m about to start day five. And I’m feeling great about this. I’m doing this with no restrictions set. Why? Because in order for me to get thru life I can’t have trailing wheels on forever because eventually I’ll get to a point with out them and then I don’t know what to do and I’ll fail. So best for me to do this without. Restrictions. So that way I can do as job did and not even look at a woman. In a way that isn’t chaste. And to not look at porn. To not think about such things. And to create the ability to trust and build a stinger relationship with god and humility to ask him for help more and to ask others for help. As well. Knowing that I can not do this alone. I need the help and it will take a village.

 

Totally forgot I had an account here. I just want to say that I now have 28 days under my belt.

I had what I believe was a spiritual awakening about 30 days ago. I showed up at my kids school for lunch while I was visiting. The look on my sons face when he walked into that lunchroom was amazing! His eyes got big and even his teacher said he was excited for me to come. Earlier that day I thought about taking a nap and not going but something told me to go so I set an alarm. When he looked at me it made my heart smile. But driving back home it hit me. I felt the feeling my son would have felt if I didn’t show up. I felt this feeling in 5th grade when my dad didn’t show up for my graduation and when I was 2 years old when no one would pick me up and my dog jumped in my crib. On my way back home I called my fiancé who I had left for almost 7 months and she started to move on and I told her I loved her and wanted to see her. That Wednesday night 10/25 I asked her to take me back and at 10/26 we were laying in bed the feeling came back and I grieved more then I ever had before! I woke up later that morning and for the first time in my life I did not have the M, P was never really an issue with me. I stared going to a therapist that deals with Internal Family Systems also known as parts therapy. It has been the most amazing experience in my life.

Fast forward I had my first wet dream last night. The devil was busy, I thought about one of the women I cheated with and ofcourse my fiancé asked me and I am trying to be totally honest with her. I am blessed that my fiancé is a god fearing woman and knew it was the devil

 

Day 2... not quite as strong

 

10 days
urges not so bad ..
To kill any evoloving idea about PMO is vital .the weakness starts the moment you let them see the light

 

Day 2 of my Day complete. I can say that it’s really a mental thing. I had so much more time on my hands to pretty much do anything. I’m going to continue to focus on myself & become a better person.

 

Day 2? - A success