quick reflection on my life

Go 90 days. Go 120 days. Trust the process and see if it gets better.

 

Means you're getting better.

 

Tell something about the changes bro

 

So how many days you finally see changes? And how long were you addictee?

 

I don't have any sexual life at the moment and will be glad if I ever have one in the future at all. It is hard to change previous negative thought patterns that have been ingrained for years and years but I am slowly breaking free from them for the first time in my life.
With that said, I am not too obsessed by sex and lust these days (only a year ago, I really was to say the least) and I guess continuing on the path of self-improvement and positive thinking might lead me there one day. I just can't prioritize it but should rather focus on productive and fulfilling activities in the first place.

 

WOW!
Did you do more exercises or sleep earlier in this period?
I want to know if just nofap can achieve this? Or maybe need more changes?

 

Although I don't have a girlfriend at the moment, I am (to be honest) a bit frightened when thinking of sexy time when that day comes. I know it might sound silly but the reasons are simply following:

-First of all, I haven't had it that much in life and it was several years ago (and back then it wasn't even good) which makes me feel a bit unexperienced and useless to begin with.

-Secondly, I get a ton of pre-ejaculate and it isn't even visual (only getting aroused for a few minutes makes me precum a lot and tense up a bit). That makes me subconsciously visualizing jizzing in my pants before any kind of penetration has taken place. This is really hard to get out of my head.

-Thirdly, I am afraid of ejaculating away all of my semen during intercourse (not able to stop it in time) which will make me lose energy, feel tired, lose all of my motivation when it comes to the bigger goals in life and get a strong urge to masturbate (i.e. relapse) after the sexual act. I am afriad that it will be a downward spiral to PMO again.