Relapsed, but I think it's ok.

So, I was on 11 days last night without MO. I had a lot on my mind and couldn't sleep. I had so many urges and I was fighting them for a few hours. I couldn't take a cold shower because I live with my parents and didn't want to wake them up. I was looking through instagram and saw a photo of a cute girl but didn't click on her account to browse it, then I ended up browsing it intentionally. I did so for about two seconds, then I realized what I did and felt guilty about it. I don't know if I was being too hard on myself or what, but eventually I MO'd. No porn, and I saw that I think it's ok because I did go 11 days, I didn't watch porn and I don't plan on following up last night's yank with another. I'm just going to keep seeing how far I can go. I feel like there has been a lot of growth in the time I've been doing this, but I think maybe I also need to remember that I'm not perfect. Hope this post is useful. Thanks for listening.

 

It does, thanks. Perhaps I could make more an effort to unwind at night and turn the cell phone off.

 

Thanks, will do!