hey all i have avoided posting or even visiting for a while as i have been in bad relapse mode for some months now (following a year where i felt like i was making real progress). it's really discouraging. but i remember that being a part of this community helped me so much when i was beating this thing, so i am willing myself to come back. i have so much respect for what everyone on here is doing, as i know how frickin hard it is. i know how addictive it is, and how shitty my addiction makes me feel about myself. i know i can be better, and i know how much i want to be better. i am recommitting myself. thx for listening
