My brain is finding "loopholes" to get its fix, need an advice.

If you want to stop doing this, put on blockers. That way, for all that you tell yourself that you will relapse when you get home, there’s no way for you to do so. Surely, ridding yourself of this addiction is worth the inconvenience that blockers will impose on you.

Since you seem to have difficulty with self-control, however, you have to be careful not to leave any loopholes in the blocker setup. You have to make it so that viewing porn will require an entirely new device, which will require using a standard user account on your PC, disabling safe mode for non-admins, and BIOS configuration to disable boot from USB. For blockers, I would recommend a combination of K9, Covenant Eyes, and use of the hosts file (though Covenant Eyes is something I use because K9 seems limited over my WiFi network for some strange reason).

 

I also experienced the same in the first 6 months of my reboot. I usually can go without PMO for 15 days and go binging on the 16th day. I am on my 24th day now, my longest streak in a long time. I would suggest brother to develop new habits in preparation for intense urges in the future. For me, what works best are cold shower, proper eating habits, intense exercises like lifting weights and more time with nature. Our brain works in such a way that it maintains homeostasis after sometime of developing habits and trying to do new habits will always feel awkward. We just don't need to stop PMO but to also replace it with new activities that are fun and fulfilling. It would not feel good at the start but it is always worth it. Just don't focus on your addiction, focus on your goals. Good luck brother!

 

your mind/ego is currently running your life.

In order to regain control over your actions, it is helpful to quiet your mind,

Learn how to meditate, learn fasting and journal every day.

Over time you will gain mastery over your mind.

I suggest reading the book the power of now.

 

I wrote about something similar several months ago and tonight I was thinking of starting a motivational thread on it. This is a technique I've used on a lot of other things with a lot of success, but haven't really tried it on nofap.
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A little background,

Many years ago when I entered first year of university, I failed almost all of my courses in the 1st semester and was placed on academic probation (one step ahead of being kicked out). The following semester they made us take this mandatory 1-hour/week class to fix our routines, our problems, procrastination and shit like that.

During the course, we came upon the topic of addictions. The professor of this class was a psychology professor specializing in addictions. He gave us a guideline on how to overcome most addictions. He said, you can rewire your brain by simple tricks (self-rewarding) that ameliorate addictive behavior.

It goes something like this,
You set a goal (i.e. nofap) to accomplish something and before you work (i.e. abstinence) upon achieving that goal, you set a reward (???) for the work performed. The reasoning behind this is that any work without a reward is unsustainable (imagine going to work every day and not getting paid), and that you are looking forward to the reward. The reward should be something pleasurable (no, not jacking off; it can be literally anything unrelated, even things you normally don't do).

So, I set up little rewards for myself that I would treat myself with after every X amount of hours spent studying, i.e. after every 15 hours of studying, I'd go get high; after every 60 hours of studying, I'd go get smashed, etc. <<These are rewards I knew were fun but used to do very, very rarely before setting up this regimen; clearly, not the best rewards but it got me studying daily.
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Also followed this method initially in working out and having a clean diet. In order to become fit (goal), for every 5 days spent lifting weights and 2 days doing cardio (work), I treated myself with junk fast food (reward). After a year, when my body changed shape, I let go of fast food and just looking in the mirror became a reward.

Similarly, I want to try this now on nofap.
I will make a new thread asking people to join a similar regimen and seek advice from those who've already done it and their experience.

I feel that the benefits (rewards) perpetuated by fellow nofappers are simply not enough to keep everyone motivated to do the work of abstinence (i.e. health benefits, elevating mood, social behavior, etc). If you can do it, that's great! I envy you.

I also feel that working towards a specific reward eases the pain of doing the work and eases the tension. In your case, I'm guessing just thinking of rewarding yourself with a fap after writing the exam numbed the craving to fap during your working hours (because you know fapping is pleasurable).

 

@Xander74 - awesome - Thats a great book too

I suggest be open to learning more about what meditation actually is the more you learn what it actually is the more you will be willing to do it despite the initial discomfort - Science of enlightenment is a good audio book for that purpose. its not really about 'spirituality' because who knows what that even is...

To me, meditation is about as SELF AWARENESS, self discipline, finding lasting peace and mastery over the mind and emotions and every thing in between

 

you are trying to control your mind. its WRONG, its like trying not to think about pink elephant.
read tip#1 and #2 https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.p...ve-from-someone-who-has-gone-300-days.170210/