Why did you decide to give up

Because it finally dawned on me how much PMO fucked with my head and dick. When I realized I developed an attraction to transgender women and femboys I also realized how it competely messed with my head. I knew then and I know now that it's not who I am, but it did inevitably make me question my sexuality for a few days after my tastes escalated. I then realized how bad it got for me, how it had compeltely zombified me. I spent hours upon hours each and every day using porn to escape my problems, my insecurities, my loneliness, my emptiness and reality as a whole. It reached a point where I started losing sensitivity in my penis due to hours of edging through my pants and aggressive masturbation. I couldn't even feel the ejaculation occurring at a certain point.

 

I have been addicted to porn for 37 years. I quit PMO for 4 years once and it was amazing I became an “alpha” male almost instantly and it stuck with me for a while. My story is long and complex. Anyway I have been in some horrible relationships and never was much of a man about it - just ran to porn to escape I think. I have had weeks and months off before but this time I want to break this porn and masturbation addiction forever. I realized that I am doing this because I don’t feel like a man. But the crazy thing is PMO just send that into a downward spiral. I’m in a bad marriage that’s a long story - I’ll spare details but I want to feel like a man again. PMO slowly drains your manhood and confidence- makes you feel weak and pathetic. My porn addiction has gone to just about everyplace the internet and magazines have to offer over the years things that are really sick. What the hell was I thinking!?

Well honestly I don’t want that anymore not for myself and not for my children I want to be a real man to my family and a good example for my teenage sons. I am on day 6 and tempted every day - to M but really want to reboot. Luckily so far not tempted for porn but I know how very very powerful this addiction is and I am sick and tired of it controlling me I want to be a FREE - STRONG MAN! So I’m hoping for 90 days no P or M and if I can start having good sex with my wife again we’ll that will be GREAT!!

Thanks to all of you for your honesty and encouragement.

 

Just to improve in my relationships and to be healthy and complete and to be balanced I guess. Also, to be more motivated throughout life and to be more outdoors as well. At least for me.

 

I watched a Netflix documentary a while back showing the lives of young girls in porn. I'm a gay guy and obviously only watched that kind of porn but the documentary hit hard.

I was enjoying my sexuality by watching videos on my phone of real people who are just acting and probably there just for the money. They're probably brought in, trimmed/shaved, douche/enema, given pills, and have to have unprotected sex with a stranger. I still used porn for a while after that hit me but I'm 17 days without p, 7 without pmo right now.

On top of that, the science of addiction and knowing what porn was doing to my mind made me say enough. Since I've read the effects of pmo (anxiety, poor concentration etc) I see pmo as affecting my work and social life in (previously unnoticed) ways. I want to reboot and change my habits and for the sake of many aspects of my life I need to.

 

I was masturbating when I wasn't even horny in order to not masturbate later, when I would be. After decades of this, I just decided that was it. How I wish I had come to this point years and years ago.

 

I started to feel weird about some of the things that I masturbated to. I now find many of them disturbing instead of arousing. A little while after that I had sex for the first time and couldn't maintain an erection for very long or, when I could keep it up, finish the job. That's when I quit.

 

I gave it up due to religious reasons. I recently got deep into my religion (Christianity) & thought that enough was enough (14 years of pmo addiction from the age of 9 till last November at the age of 23.).

 

I fell into darkness again . . .

I couldn't take the pain anymore . . .

I had no choice . . . I couldn't just sit there and die . . .

 

I could barely function as a human being in the end. Every fucking symptom of addiction bar panic attacks I had in the end. It was either keep on being a zombie or trying to fight back and get my life together.

 

Broccoli sprouts helps tremendously with that.

Ben Greenfield, he uses near infrared light to boost his testosterone by 300% that with a little bit of exercise.
and you're sexuality is unfucked.

I don't like to think in terms of morality. Addiction is unhealthy. If someone PMO'd like once, that's not shameful
I partially identify with shame, addicted to it basically. My father is a big shame addict, that's why.

 

The moment I realized it affected my ability to have sex with my wife. P is just a quick displacement activity, something we do not to face our demons. The moment it touched the thing which is most dear to me, i.e. my wife and family, I stopped.

 

For me it was a long series of events and insights.

At the core of all these, however, was a sense of hopeless entrapment as my acting out kept becoming more frequent and more intense. The future (and the present, for that matter) did not look good...

All of which I have to remind myself of every day.

 

When I realize I need like a 99.9 perfection of an physical look of my type of a woman....or I fantasize to have a power to control any woman I like to have sex with me at will...or imagining having 10 pair of perfect natural boobs touching me at the same time...or I am being too unrealistic and hurt my so

 

For my marriage. And, because God.

I lost one family that all started from the poison I brought home when I wasted time on pornography / pmo either in the car or late at night hiding in dark areas of the house. So, lots of the impetus to quit was to turn off the shame that was killing my soul.

 

I just decided to quit, I had no problems with any of the PMO issues/causes I've seen here. I just decided one day to remove it from my life for both myself and in the process I renewed my religious beliefs that I have ignored for many years. I guess PMO did one bad thing, the worst thing really, it made me feel like a total hypocrite and it got me to stop communicating with my God.

17 days strong and it has been the most effortless 17 days in my entire life, Hallelujah!

 

Good stuff Zeekland!

i hope God richly blesses you!!

 

For me it was I was tired of watching people that had no interest in me and the fact I hated anything trying to control me I just wanted to find someone real and be free

 

I guess the masturbation is one the reason.

 

When I noticed I was a stupid,isolated, useless weak dumbass that couldn't resist over some naked woman images and wasted time with the eyes on the screen and the hands in the pants ,fooling my brain and wasting my resources.

Thankfully now I'm not an isolated weak dumbass. I can see whatever porn imagery(not that i look for it, sometimes in this filthy internet stuff appears ) and simply move on without any problems at all. I gained resistance to porn and stuff, and God granted me this.

 

It was religious reasons for me. What brought me to NoFap was the years of trying to quit and not being able to. I just felt like I finally needed to treat this like it was: an addiction.